There are certain experiences from my childhood that I recall very clearly, and I recall this experience *vividly*, even tough I was only three at the time.

I was laying in my crib, in the dark, unable to fall asleep.  I noticed a woman and a man walk into my room.  I didn't make the connection that people aren't supposed to walk through walls.  I remember standing up and immediately putting my hands out, asking to be taken out of my crib. 

The lady was very elderly.  Her hair was pulled back, maybe in a bun?  She wore a long dress and an apron.  She was smiling and seemed very excited to see me.  She was mouthing words that I couldn't hear and waving her hand in a small "hello" gesture.  It was as if she were trying to be very quiet. Then she began to approach my crib.

The man that was with her was also elderly, wearing a button-down shirt and dark pants.  He seemed grumpy and completely uninterested in seeing me.  He stood by the wall with his arms crossed.

They were both glowing a pale light.  As she approached, I realized that something was not right and got upset - perhaps the fact that I could see through her slightly and she was glowing.  When I began to scream, she raised her eyebrows and gestured with her hands for me to quiet down.  She put her finger to her mouth to say "sshh".  I didn't stop.  She began to back up toward the wall where the man was.  As they faded, my door opened and I saw my mom and dad.  They were annoyed.  They told me to go back to sleep.

When I was five, I shared this experience with my mom.  She told me that, according to the descriptions I gave, that they had to be her grandparents. 

Years later, I got to look at photos of them that a relative had.  It was then that I knew for certain that yes, these were my great-grandparents that had visited me that night.  I really wish I hadn't reacted that way I did.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?

Yes

I was three years old and completely tongue-tied.  I was able to speak about it when I was five.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         

No

Did you see the deceased?       

Yes

Elderly, dressed in typical clothing, slightly transparent and glowing a clear light.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            somewhat transparent.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Full head to toe.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?            I had not met them previously, but they did die at an old age.  I believe they appeared at the same age as their death.
            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            They were old, that's about it.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No way.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?  

No

How long did the experience last?      

I am guessing less than one minute.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         

gradual. They came through the wall!  And left the same way.  Slowly.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?         

Yes

Woman seemed absolutely tickled to see me - much the way adults are with small children.

The man was grumpy and disinterested.  It seemed that he was just there to accompany her.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

No.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?        

Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:  

Their features, their clothes, even their personalities where confirmed through photographs and my mother's memories of her grandparents.

          Was the experience dream like in any way? 

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:        

At first I recall feeling demanding - "pick me up!" - that was my standard response to any grown-up that approached my crib.  I just wanted out.

That changed to confusion.  I don't remember feeling fear at all, yet I screamed anyway - and very loudly.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         

No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   

Best part was seeing them.  Worst part was that I screamed.  I really wished I hadn't done that.  I wish I could have just stood there in my crib and allowed her to communicate with me.  I realize that my be asking too much from a three year old.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?      

No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No         

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?        

Yes    Even in death we miss our loved ones - even the ones we had yet to meet.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?     

Yes

I did with my mom.  No, the deceased were not a part of this pact.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        

No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         

Frustration.  I tried to express to my parents what I had seen but was unable.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?         

Yes

My mom and dad came rushing into my room when I began to scream but didn't were too late to see what I saw.

I began to talk about the experience when I was five.  My  mother recalled the night it happened because she said it was unusual to here me scream and gesture the way I did.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? 

No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    

No

Did you become aware of future events?     

No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?           No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    

No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?         

No

Did you see a light?        

Yes 

A clear light shined out from them.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?        

No

Have you shared this experience with others?       

Yes    They seem entertained, not skeptical.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?         

No.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   

No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? 

Yes 

It was accidental and scared the hell out of me.  I was fourteen years old and living at a boarding school in Baltimore.  My mom had given me a copy of a Time-Life book from the "Mysteries" series, which she worked for at the time. It included a chapter with information and instructions on have to induce an OBE (out of body experience).  I read the whole book over for the entertainment value of it.  A few minutes after I had gone to bed and turned out the light, I began to feel unusually relaxed and sleepy.  It felt good.  The next thing I knew, I felt myself sort of rising above my body and moving toward the floor.  I could see in the dark.  I could perceive solid objects, but not the same way my eyes do.  As I went further into my room, my body felt anxiety, but my soul felt calm and free of feelings.  As I moved farther away from my body, I could sense the distress it was under.  My heart was pounding and my respiration had increased.  My body was having a panic attack, but without me.  I remember thinking, "I ought to go back now before something happens to my body" so I returned slowly.  When it was over, I jumped out of the bed shaking and terrified.

I have noticed that the body and the mind can have separate agendas.  I consciously did not want to leave my body, but it was as if my soul did.  When I was out, I recall a heightened sense of awareness and a lack of emotion.  I returned to my body not because of worry, but because it was the right thing to do. 

I had tried going back to bad after that and I began to get that very relaxed feeling and feared it would happen again, so I stayed up for a long time to come.  I promised myself I wouldn't ever do that again.  It hasn't happened sense.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?          

Yes 

I can't think of what more I can say.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.  

No suggestions.