My first experience was at the time of finding out that my partner was found dead. I was crying uncontrollably when I heard and saw a little blue wren tapping on the window and flapping his wings like he was trying to get my attention.  There were two people with me at the time but only I seemed to notice it. My partner Darren knew I had a fondness for these birds so it seemed to me he was letting me know he was ok.  The second experience I was in bed had just drifted off to sleep and said to Darren in my head its good to be in your arms again feeling his arms around me and my back to his chest, I then heard his voice audibly say" I believe you "to which I awoke and still felt him there. I didn't want to move as I knew it wasn't a dream and wanted to stay in his arms but then he was gone. The third time I was drifting off again as I've had trouble sleeping, when a bright light was right in front of my eyes, I could look straight at it, it wasn't blinding, but all I saw was light, it was gone in seconds and I sat up trying to work out what it was as the room was completely dark. I believe it to be Darren again reassuring me everything will be ok.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    his voice another time I heard him breathing

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  externally

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           similar

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

he was holding me in his arms

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   very familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  just a lovely loving warm sensation

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no because I checked after he had gone to make sure I wasn't imagining it

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        minutes for the first, seconds for the second and about a minute or two for the third

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         gradual I think

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Uncertain

the second one was loving and protective I felt safe

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I'm  a rational person and I know I wasn't dreaming

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I felt comforted, loved,

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

it was reassuring to know that he was out there still somewhere and gave me hope that I would see him again

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      best part having him near me worst part leaving again

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I'm living one day at a time mostly due to losing my partner, having a more open mind towards different beliefs