The night I found out that she had passed I was weak and tired and didn't know what to do or if I was going to pass out.  I was in major shock but I kept hearing her say "You told me you would love me unconditionally and this is unconditional, I know you will understand , you always did"  I later lied down on the bed and heard she told me "it happened before she knew it and she felt no pain, she thought she was dreaming as she floated above her body"  She said that she was trying to communicate with my mom and sister but they couldn't hear her and she said it was like a radio station you had to tune into and I asked her if that was why they called it channeling and in a sarcastic voice she said, "how would I know" 

She wasn't all knowing but she was so excited to tell me of her experience.  I asked her if she was in heaven and she said it was not like in the movies but there were different planes.  She said she was so excited to meet all the family members and other people and she was very very excited about the whole thing although she didn't want to leave us.  She said she needed for us to keep loving her.  She said she didn't know what happened to her and she had so much to do she couldn't wait to get going with her new life.  She also said that my grandfather and family members greeted her there. 

She joked with me and laughed and the last thing she said to me was "The bag with red trim"  and I said "what about it? what kind of bag?" She said a makeup bag.  I told my other sister about the bag but no one else knew and when we got to her apartment, we were looking for her diamond necklace to put on her at the funeral and found all her other good jewelry but not the necklace.  The next day my mother said we were in the bedroom and I said, "I know where it is and walked over to a bag with red trim and sure enough there it was, in the bottom of this makeup bag with red trim.  I don't remember saying anything about knowing where it was, I guess I just knew.  That was a huge confirmation for my family that she was communicating with me. (this was only the first experience)

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

We had a conversation clear as day and I asked questions and she answered every one of them with a sense of humor and was very loving and supportive of my grief. The next day I remembered every word and it was like we stayed up through the night talking- I thought I was sleeping but it was strange like I was awake it was so real.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   see above, but I hear things about what she is doing and messages for my mother

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  the voice was in my hed and at first I thought it was not real and I was under a lot of stress but there was a lot of proof because I saw a medium (which I normally wouldn't do and she said many of the same things.)

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           When in my head sometimes it was mine and I asked her why and she said, "You only have one voice, but every now and then I hear something that is in her voice- but it will only be a word or two.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           definitely not

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         No

however, often i feel awakened by her in the night and do not see anything.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

during the first communication she was sooo excited and happy to meet people and wanted to share everything with me- like she did on earth

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Heaven was different levels and planes, I did not know if she had suffered during her passing and she said she did not and the autopsy, as well as the medium, said it was quick .

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          After her death I read up on types of communication with the deceased and many of them had taken place in my life and also the dream/voices from her were also on target with what is documented and I had not known this info previously

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

I was awake but I was in a relaxed calm sate once we were communicating

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           extremely relaxed and calm and so happy to have talked to her

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Definitely- it proved to me that she was still living

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      that I couldn't see her and i couldn't talk longer or make it happen again

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I am so much more open to hearing others stories and i want to know all I can about communicating with deceased loved ones and I want to find a spiritual church

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes

not scared of death, know there is a higher power know my sister lives on

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes , how she died, and the bag with red trim

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            calm and like I could deal with the funeral and help support family members.  I felt she was still alive in a different way.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Uncertain

I told my spouse that every thought I had was almost pushed out of my head with a positive thought from her but it was like a telepathic conversation at first.  The next time the only witness who was there was my dog and we heard laughing from above us and the dog stopped and stared and looked up.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

the day I found out she died, earlier in the morning before I knew I had a overwhelming feeling of something bad was going to happen and I verbalized it to a few co workers.  It was so deep and strange- this has happened to me 3 times and afterward things have happened.  Also, my grandfather has talked to me in dreams twice in dreams when i was in medical distress and he was a physician

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I wasn't out of my body or anything it was just a different level of consciousness

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            Yes, on the plane on the way to her funeral and also in the car and on a trip and in my home

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes, some are so intrigued- all seem top believe me but I think some are placating me so I am careful who I tell

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes