Kristina A ADC
The one experience I want to discuss is a dream I had. The dream was so real and so vivid that I actually felt that this really took place and I traveled to a far away place. I seen a bright light and all the communication was not verbal. It felt like someone answered my questions as I thought them. I saw Benji in the dream but before I did I was told that the light was Benji passing over. I actually viewed the crossing over of his spirit. My mother appeared during this time but she was not in physical form. To indicate it was my mother they showed me photographs of her when she was young. Never knowing my mother when she was younger I believe the photos were a way to show me that my mom was young and beautiful. When I thought to myself who is the beautiful women I was answered by an angel that that is your mother. I said to myself WOW she is beautiful. I was able to proceed to the other side for a short while. When I did so Benji told me many things about the world. He told me that we all have a destiny before we are born and that we all have a soul mate that we are suppose to reside with for eternity. He was my soul mate and that he would be waiting for me at the time of my crossing. He also told me that my mother was apart of out soul family. She was there at his crossing and continues to help him communicate with me. I remember seeing Benji in this world and he was radiant and shared nothing but overwhelming love and compassion. We explored the realms and then I had to return he told me he loved me and he would always be with me. When I awoke I felt an overwhelming sense of peace and unconditional love. The experienced eased my grief for a couple days. The dream has been connected with several other ADC's I have had. I have had two songs play on the radio several times specifically when I am thinking of him. The first one is Let it be by the Beatles and in the song it speaks about going to the mother Mary which Mary was my mothers name and also another song called God your momma and me. There has been many more extreme occurrences after his passing but there is so many to list. One other visit I believe is the day after his death Our song 'Die a happy man' kept playing on the radio several times through out the day and the feeling of his presences was overwhelming.
Have you had multiple experiences? Yes My Fiance Benji died almost two weeks ago. Hours after his passing I started to receive signs. I have had so many coincidences that I can not even count. It is so profound that I have begun to believe that I was losing my mind.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
Details abut the dream is a little bit hard to express in words because it was more like a feeling and a knowing.
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I hear his voice all the time internally. Specifically when I call out to him in grief. He says a lot 'It's going to be okay babe.'
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? Internal
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? Yes it sounds just like his voice
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
I felt like he was cuddling with in bed last night to be honest. My hair stood up and I felt a warm tingling feeling on my arms.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar
Was anything communicated by the touch? No it just felt like he wanted to fall asleep with me like we use to do.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? I smell his cologne all the time. It is always accompanied by a song on the radio or a strong feeling of his presence or a strong memory.
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? Fragrance
Was anything communicated by the smell? Just that he has not left me
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
How long did the experience last? I can't tell you how long the dream lasted because it was a dream. But a normal occurrence lasts about 30 seconds or a minute.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? I'm not sure I have been having occurrences everyday.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
The day that Benji died I went to his apartment in his room. I felt a heaviness in the room and an overwhelming feeling of regret. In the dream however I felt Benji was Loving and at peace
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes when I saw Benji in the dream. He told me we are soul mates and that our souls will be connected forever. He also told me about the spiritual family concepts.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I feel like I can not talk to anyone about this because they will think I am crazy. I just know in my heart that I know its him. If all these occurrences happened in this way to someone else not close to Benji I believe they would disregard it. I know that its him because the occurrences are conveyed in a way that illustrates our physical relationship on earth.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Overwhelming feeling of unconditional love and peace.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Yes, I was praying a lot to God because I was affraid because Benji Died of an overdose he would not go to heaven.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part of the experiences is that I know he loves me and tries to reassure me. The bad apart of the experiences is that I get so overwhelmed with longing for him that sometimes it causes me grief.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes Changed my whole belief system of God and the afterlife
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes Benji told me about the spirit world. He told me that we all have soul mates and that we choose them while on the other side. When we come to this earth we choose to come here. It's like we sign up for the challenge. He also told me that my mother is apart of his soul family which I am apart of. He will always be my soul partner.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Overwhelming feeling of peace and love
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No Response
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
it felt like space did not exist. I still felt like I had time. I kept being told its not your time yet and I needed to go back home soon.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Benji told me in the dream that we all come to earth for a purpose. We choose to come in order to complete a common goal together.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
BI feel like some times I see Benji in a imaginary view. One time I was talking to my co worker and she was talking about moving and I knew where she was moving before she told me. Knoxville TN to be accurate
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
ntohI felt like I left my body and went to heave or another world.Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Yes
My guardian angel was present during the crossing over. It was told to me I needed to have this angel present to keep me protected
Did you see a light? Yes
During the crossing over on Benji's spirit I saw a bright light where most of the communication with the angel took place.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
No Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
On October 29 2016 I died. Benji saved my life and asked God to take him instead. During this time I was using illicit drugs and died of an overdose but I have not put any substances in my body since Dec 2016. I made a promise and a choice to not use substances any more. I did not start having experiences except my NDE until Benji died in June 2017. My spirit was released from my body and I could see and feel Benji holding me crying. I was floating in the ceiling. Right after this I went to a room with so many other people there waiting. In the room there was a double sided mirror and on the other side of the mirror I saw my mother. I remember going to her on the other side in a waiting room. I felt like I was in a hospital waiting room. She asked me not verbally but telepathically 'what are you doing with your life, you have a son.' She then told me that it was not my time yet and that I needed to go back home. So I went back into the room full of other people another person asked me what was she doing there and I said I don't know. I walk further away and the next thing I know I woke up in the ambulance and the paramedics asked me the name of my dog. I told them and they asked me if I knew what happened. They told me I needed to hang on because I died several times and they did not want me to die again. I needed to keep fighting to stay awake and with them.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes