In January, I had a dream that a female was in much pain and dying. I did not know who it was but I knew someone was in much pain, in bed and dying. When I awoke, I remembered the dream and it disturbed me. I thought someone I know is going to die.
In early February, I visited my local Sam Club and I picked up the DVD "Remembering Hearts in Atlantis" When I picked it up, I felt that it would be a good movie. The movie somehow called me and I purchased it. I enjoyed the movie and I thought it was money well spent to add to my collection. In February, I had the dream again, of a female wasting away, dying. I remembered the dream when I woke up.
In March I had another dream of a female dying and in great pain. It was very painful for her to get washed and a clean night gown put on her . This dream was stronger than the others. I was so sure it was real that I told my wife that I had a reoccurring dream that someone was dying. In April, I had another dream and the female figure died. She blew out her last breath in pain, and it sounded like sweet musical notes going downward. There was a man with white hair standing by her side smiling. I immediately woke up and the dream disturbed me, and again, I remembered it. ( This was a Friday morning)
On Saturday, I woke up and prepared for the day. As I was getting dressed, a thought entered my mind, "And Jesus Wept" This thought kept racing through my mind as I got dressed. I drove to the restaurant for breakfast and I picked up the local paper, I read the front page. I casually glanced through the obituary column and I found the name of my first girlfriend, my first innocent love. I was shocked and saddened. She died of cancer. I read the obituary. We had both married other people. But, I never really stopped loving her. I just wouldn't let my mind think about her because she was married.. and she was married to a prominent man.
I couldn't finish breakfast, I was too upset. I hopped in my truck to pick up some bricks at the local brick yard for my weekend project. While I was driving there, my thoughts were about her. It had been years since I spoke to her or saw her. The last time I saw her, she was out with her hubby and they bought my wife and I a drink. I continued driving, then I had a thought come to me.. a quote from "Remembering Heart in Atlantis" "her kiss will be the one by which all others will be judged in your life and all with be left wanting." I began to weep and cry tears, something which I haven't done in a long time. I was crushed, I had many high hopes for her in her professional life. She was very smart and affable.
Saturday came, I did not attend her viewing, I thought she would have me remember her in her health. I was able to sneak out of work on Monday morning and attend part of her funeral service in church. I was too late to attend her wake. There was a white cloth (a pall) on her casket. I stayed for most of the mass and prayed for her.
I didn't dwell on her and I accepted her death. About a month later I had another dream.
About May 26th, I had a dream, I was in bed and the bedroom was slightly dark. The bedroom door opened up. On the other side of the door was bathed in white light. She came in the room and she was wearing her black prom dress. My memories of her was that she was most beautiful in her prom dress. She was beautiful. She was smiling at me and she said, "Come here and give me a kiss" I said no, I have bad breath. Again she smiled and asked, "Come here and give me a kiss." I sat up in bed and I embraced her. I felt myself kiss her and I was familiar with her lips and form. It was something that I longed for since we were no longer romantically involved. It felt so right and so familiar. As I kissed her, she disappeared into me. She said, "That was sweet." I immediately woke up. I knew that was definitely her spirit. There was not a doubt in my mind.
This dream also made me miss her more. What a beautiful experience that dream was.
Details of location of experience and your activity at time of experience (for example: sleeping, in reading in bed in bedroom, at funeral of deceased, driving a car to work, cooking in kitchen, etc.): I had recurring dreams of a female dying for about 3 months.
Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience (choose best response): Slight sadness and/or grief feelings
Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience (choose best response):
After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience: Wonderful
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: She said "come here and give me a kiss" . Twice she asked me for a kiss.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? Externally, spoken clear as day.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? YES.. exactly the same voice and mannerisms, fit the personality.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience? No. I was home alone.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No
Did you feel
a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes I was kissed on the lips
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very Familiar. The kiss lasted briefly but I felt her nose, lips and face. There was no question in my mind that it was her. And it felt so right, like a we fit perfectly together.
Was anything communicated by the touch? She said, "that was sweet." as she disappeared into me.
Is there any possibility what
you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of
Did you see the deceased?
Yes Radiant smile, beautiful, in good health. Love in her eyes. Happy.
How clearly did the deceased appear (i.e. solid, somewhat transparent,
Solid, like she was really there.. up until after we kissed.
How much of the deceased did you see (i.e. all or part of the deceased): Full length
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Younger
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Did they have any infirmities before they died which might have been apparent or not apparent? Very healthy
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or
odor did you smell?
She wore a particular perfume and I forgot the name of it. I was sitting in my chair watching TV. I smelled the perfume.
Was the smell, scent, fragrance
or odor familiar?
It was the one in which I could see her vividly in my mind. The perfume brings her in context.
Was anything communicated by the smell? Just that she was around
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
How long did the experience last? about 30 seconds
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? gradual
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes Happiness
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? That she had seen me jogging years ago at a local park.
Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding your fear of death. Slightly fearful
Your beliefs currently regarding your fear of death. Slightly fearful
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Because of the way the whole gift came about. I had not seen her for six years and I only spoke to her briefly in the presence of her husband and my wife. I had no way of knowing she was sick and once she got married, I would not let my mind think of her in a romantic way. But, I always loved her and wanted good for her.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?
No particular emotion
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I accepted the fact that she died. I was not grieving but I was sad that she was taken.
any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
I really missed her more after the dream.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Prior to her entrance in the room was the worst. It was a little startling. I was not afraid of her when she entered the room.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? If Yes or Uncertain, describe how. (For example: Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices?) Yes I am more spiritual. I go to church often. I am less stressed.
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have? Sacred Life-changing Joy I go to church often.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes The fact that there is life after death.. and I want to be in Heaven when I die has prompted me to re-examine my thoughts and actions while here in this world..
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? No There were no judgments of good or bad in this dream
"Death Compacts" are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have ever made such a compact? No
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Joy. When I woke up immediately after the dream, I felt a profound joy and I knew it was definitely her spirit.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes I told my wife about the dreams I had of someone dying before the event took place.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain I am uncertain about how I will fit in with her when I owe no more to this life.
The kiss left me confused.
Did you become aware of future events? Yes The dreams prior to her death... revealed her death.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I have a spiritual sense. I can see people's thought patterns .. good or bad.. at times.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Uncertain When I was in bed in the dream state, I saw the bottom portion of my body before I sat up in bed to embrace and kiss her.
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Yes When she died, I saw a man with white hair smiling and he looked at me.
Did you see a light? Yes When the door to my room opened up, there was a bright light on the other side. The thought of funeral parlor also came to mind.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes They were "amazed".
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes Hello from Heaven. web site.. no response.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes