Lara S's ADC
Not sure if this really will be as WOW to you... Oklahoma really is "WINDY". Bessie OK is a picture of Oklahoma. The cemetery where we were putting my mom has relatives all over it and it is very flat, few trees and very much way out in the open. So as we drove to the church from Oklahoma City where most of the relatives live or conjugated for this event, we witnessed a VERY clear sky. The drive took about 1-2 hours. It was a very clear day - the type of day that makes your nose bleed the air is so dry. I SAID ALOUD that I thought my mom's funeral should have a rainbow appear at it but obviously that would not happen.
So the funeral went on when we got there - loads of tears. And as we lined up to take the box of her ashes out the front door towards the cemetery, out of NOWHERE the entire sky went completely insane. It was dark, grey, raining. As we moved towards the cemetery - which is located about 200 feet from the front of the church, I saw a lone dove flying around the one main tree in the center of the site. No other birds were flying. The weather was bordering on very dangerous. I kept looking around to see who would not follow us. But everyone there walked in a line to the gravesite. She was buried in between her parents near their heads. I threw in pictures of my kids and my daughter threw in flowers. Why - I don't know.
My uncle shared some words and we prayed. The winds were WHIPPING around and it felt violent but that one dove was still flying away from the tree overhead - in a circle and then back over and over. As soon as he said Amen, it started to rain.
So we all went inside, into the basement and watched a video of pictures and music of my mom's life and broke bread together. The storm was heard through the walls. About an hour later or more, we started to venture outside and watched the sky open up literally before our eyes and a giant rainbow appeared and was there to see for most of the car ride back to Oklahoma City.
My aunt and uncle were astounded. There was the rainbow. We all witnessed the violent storm come around out of NOWHERE and not on radar. We all saw the dove. We all saw the rainbow. Three others heard me say, over my mom's ashes, that we needed a rainbow and the way the weather had been, a rainbow was impossible. But less than 2-3 hours later, we saw a big one right over her grave.
I miss her so much.
Someone said it doesn't get better. We just get used to the pain. But I guess
I don't want the pain to go away so I am fine with it.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? The dove flew for 30 minutes in a storm. The rainbow lasted about an hour or so.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? The storm came upon us totally and completely out of nowhere. It went away just as fast.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Uncertain
I feel like she HAD to have heard me. Or God did and was trying to comfort me. I am not sure what the dove was doing. Any other bird would have flown away. I felt like my mom was there OR God was there - and trying to tell us all there that we were still connected to my mom.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? no
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Well, there wasn't communication with my mom. What I saw was concrete. The storm came out of nowhere, the dove was there, the storm behaved like it was part of the funeral and left leaving a rainbow which I asked for when the skies were completely clear AND air was so dry it hurt to breathe. There I SUPPOSE is room for a coincidence, but there were way too many.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was still in shock having lost my mom and I was sad and I was sort of in awe.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Yes.... I felt like it was a communication that my mom is somewhere good. I just feel still felt pain from losing her.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? I still wish my mom would contact me. I did have a dream not long after that - I have had a few where I woke up thinking it was real - and some things would happen in real life like it did in the dream. Like 15 years ago I dreamed I was at the pool and some girl said Michael Jackson died. I was not really a Michael Jackson fan. But for 3 months I thought he was dead. But when I found out he died when he actually died, I was at the pool and some girl said he died the same way in my dream from 13 years before. The dream with my mom felt real. But she was happy but we did not speak. I just saw her at the end of a long train ride and I think I just woke up. Anyways - there is no closure to hurting over her death because I don't really want there to be. But I have accepted it. The seeing of the rainbow made me feel better.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No Describe: My life has not CHANGED. But it leaves me with the memory of my mom's death not feeling all-about death and end. But like her life is not over - she has flown away to Heaven and her soul is somewhere. I believed that would happen already.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain Not certain how to answer.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Uncertain Not sure except it reinforces my suspicion there is a life after death.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
NO but I always thought if someone would contact me, it would be my mom. I wish we had spoken about it because I know if I had asked her and she could, she would have.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? N0 response
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt happier.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes
All of the funeral members
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a light? No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Have you shared this
experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? no
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Uncertain
I have had some spiritual experiences but nothing profound enough to share here.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I just want to make sure that it is understood that although I did not speak or see her or anything that it was so abundantly clear to me and everyone at the funeral that the weather and actions of the bird were unnatural. Like it was just unreal and like a science fiction movie.