Laurie K's ADC 2505
Following 2 visitation dreams from others who had also passed, known both to me
and my ex lover, who inferred to me that he was OK now and had passed
successfully, and also 'hearing' from him clairaudiently reassuringly saying my
name and 'please don't cry' on several occasions in my kitchen, he then came to
me in a very strong visitation dream some 6 weeks after he had passed. (I had
been distraught for some time but was beginning to feel a little calmer after
reading about NDE's online although I still felt bereft at his passing). Over
the weeks I had repeatedly asked him in my head for a visitation dream to try
and ease my grief and was so surprised when it came through around 8.00 am in
the morning. I had had a bad nights sleep, visited the bathroom and decided to
go back to bed. As soon as I drifted back to sleep I had an extremely vivid
dream that I was standing in what I could only describe as an 'observation room'
similar to e.g. where onlookers would observe surgery. I was standing behind a
glass window watching what was going in a room behind the glass window.
To my left, on the same side of the glass as myself, I was aware of
another presence(s) (possibly spirit guides?), I saw no-one but I was told or
somehow knew that I must remain silent and I was there merely to observe. I was
overwhelmed with joy to see my ex lover the other side of the window, much
younger than when he had passed, stunningly handsome in his 20's and fit and
well. He was wearing a beautifully cut pale blue suit, white open neck shirt and
gold cufflinks. He was in a rather run down dark wood living room/kitchenette
full of clutter and interacting with what was very evidently a very poor family,
of a different ethnic background to himself (it appeared to be their home). The
parents were in the background watching him and smiling and he was having great
fun playing the children and he was throwing the youngest children into the air
and catching them as they giggled with glee, and he was crawling around on the
floor playing various silly games with them. All were having a fun time
including him, laughing and playing.
I was just mesmerized and so beside myself with joy to see him again although he
wasn't aware I was there. Then I was
telepathically told by my/his guides? that he was there to learn to show empathy
and kindness to those less well off than himself and that the 'lesson' was
working and he was doing well.
that point I began to stir and felt myself coming out of the dream and wake up,
but I was so upset, I said 'no, no, I want to see him more' and much to my
amazement and relief I didn't wake and the dream went on into a second part!
was now travelling on the upper deck of one of our local double-decker buses
(they are not just in London :-)) travelling through the countryside. I could
see a beautiful blue sky through the windows and the bus was brightly lit by
sunshine streaming through the windows. The bus seemed to be quite crowded, (but
on later reflection I realized none of the other passengers seemed solid, more
like transparent outlines of people).
My lover was walking down the aisle of the bus looking for a seat wearing
exactly the same outfit of the pale blue suit I had seen him in earlier. Once
again I was beside myself with joy to see him again and he beamed at me as I
patted the empty seat next to me and said 'sit next to me'. He sat down and told
me what a lovely time he had been having and attending lots of parties, where he
was popular with ladies (he was keen to impress me!) and socializing :-) He made
no mention of any career and I was left with the impression he was behaving more
like an excited college student, he really was buzzing with excitement of his
life now. He flirted outrageously with me and for a fleeting moment I was
appalled to look down and realize I was still in my nightwear and realized I
hadn't brushed my hair or done my teeth! So I guess I was aware I was dreaming?
However he was smiling his gorgeous smile at me and I realized he couldn't care
less, so I decided I couldn't look too bad and flirted back.
commented on the scenery as the bus began to descend a steep hill, but instead
of seeing the little English town where I live instead lay a beautiful European
looking town of brightly colored villas with terracotta colored roofs, more akin
to Italy or the South of France, very picturesque and appealing.
our bus began to descend the hill, he again gave me the most overwhelmingly
broad smile, and then moved his face really close to mine, so close that the
main thing I could see were his extremely penetrating and lovely eyes looking
deep into mine. (I am almost embarrassed to admit I was like a lovelorn teenage
girl!) Then he asked (I couldn't tell if his lips moved we were too close) but
in a serious tone 'Do you really really want ME?' (as opposed to any other man I
presumed?) I blurted out 'Yes, yes!' I became very aware that the answers I gave
him were really important now and he was testing me as to how much I loved him
and that he would know if I lied. Then he asked 'would you do anything for me?'
and I blurted out 'anything anything!'. I again feel almost embarrassed now that
I had absolutely NO ego (although strangely he did as he was aware he was/is
very handsome which he was in real life). I knew that he wanted to be sure I
loved him 100% and once I answered him he knew that I did.
I cannot stress enough I knew the questions he asked and my answers were
very important. Then I felt he was confident and assured by my replies and he
just 'said' 'Good' and he kissed me so passionately it almost 'blew my boots
off' :-) We sank back against the
seat of the bus still kissing and then slowly passengers and bus melted away and
I was awake again. I tried to drift back into the dream, but it was no use it
had gone. I did shed a few tears when the dream was over as I wanted it to go on
and on, but I was also so relieved to hear from him, (as there is no guarantee
of a visitation dream as you all know) and I was so happy to have such a
beautiful, beautiful dream from him, I have to say it has brought me a lot of
peace. Even though I am still sad, I really would like to think by his behavior
that we will be meeting up again for sure, possibly reincarnating together? as I
really did feel he was my soulmate and our time together had been suddenly cut
short in this life. The dream was very very vivid, was logical, the colors were
very intense and I could even feel his kiss.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: He had a conversation with me.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? I heard him, but it might have been telepathically.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? The same as his voice.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? Absolutely not.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
Passionate kiss on the lips.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar!!!
Was anything communicated by the touch? Yes. See dream details.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Did you see the deceased? Yes
As handsome as he was in his 20's. He was retirement age when he died. Interestingly he wore an expensive smart suit in a color he wouldn't have normally worn in real life, in real life he wore casual clothes like jeans and t-shirts and only very occasionally a suit.
How clearly did the deceased appear? Completely solid.
How much of the deceased did you see? All of him.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Years younger than when he died.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Very healthy.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? Can't tell as it was a dream.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Sudden beginning went into the dream immediately, the ending was gradual fading until I woke.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Full of joy and excitement.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Sort of in that he told me what he was doing now.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: The criteria for a visitation dream matches most of those I have read. The preceding dreams to the dream from my lover also made sense in preparing the way for my dream. I had gone to sleep many nights wishing so hard to hear from him I know there is no way I could have engineered the dream in my head, because I was just dreaming garbled rubbish. After taking some comfort from reading about NDE's and ADC's my grief lessened slightly as I had heard from him clairaudiently by then.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Sheer overwhelming joy. I thought my heart was going to burst out of my chest at seeing him again, just like a lovelorn teenage girl! No ego at all.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
It has definitely healed some of my grief and I am pretty sure that if there is an afterlife we will be together again. So relief and peace.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The sheer joy of seeing him again. The sadness at waking up.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Describe: Just more at peace.