My mom had breast cancer and it metastasized to her liver. Her liver eventually failed in June of 2011. She was then put on hospice. My mom and i had a strong bond. And she told me she would come back to see me if she passed. She was the type of woman who would kick and scream her way though. Because of the toxins in her blood, she was not very lucid at the end. My sister and I were there everyday for those last 14 days. The day of her passing, I stayed home because I was tired of waiting for her to die. I planned on coming but I was dragging my feet. I jumped in the shower and a Hall and Oates song popped into my head. "She's gone" over and over and over. I answered myself saying in my head "no she's not, she's still here"
Then I heard her tell
me in my head "Leigh, I want you to make up with your step-dad and take care of
him" I answered her saying, Mom you're not dead, stop it" As the song's chorus
kept playing over again. I dried off, got my clothes on and went to my cell
phone to find missing calls from my sister and a message saying that Mom had
passed 10 minutes prior to showering. My partner walked in the door and I looked
at her and asked her "she's gone huh?" She replied yes. Later that day, after
the funeral home took her body, we got into our SUV to drive home and we heard a
knocking noise from the back. Over and over, a thug thug thug. As if she was
saying hey I'm here. It stopped and we have never heard that same noise since.
There have been many many other times where I've heard my Mom in my head and in
my dreams. I know she's there and will always be here for us.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? Voice was inside my head
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? Exact same voice as she sounded when she was alive.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? NO
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? NO
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? a few minutes
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Uncertain
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? No
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact?
She promised she'd come back and see me. But she has yet to fully expose herself to me other than in my head and in my dreams.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness but happy she spoke to me
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
I dreamt years ago of my Moms death. So yes I dream of the future.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No