experience difficult to express in words?
I can easily describe what happened. It's harder to describe the feeling--the sensing of what it really was.
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
As described, I felt a whoosh of very warm "air" and a strong sense that it was my father trying to let me know he was there and that there was life after death. (That would have been a surprise to him!
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? As described--very familiar.
Was anything communicated by the touch? Yes, as described, I felt psychically that he was trying to tell me "What do you know, there IS life after death. I'm here with you." It felt loving and gentle and happy--like he was having fun with it. I think he knew I wouldn't be frightened by it. I was surprised by it, but not frightened. I was not expecting anything like that to happen.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? As described, I tried to find another explanation that fit--ie. the heat vent, but there wasn't one.
Did you see the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? A Seconds--less than a minute--well, the whoosh did--a slow whoosh. It took several minutes to process what I instantly and instinctively knew it was. And to look for other causes in case I was fooling myself. I don't believe I was fooling myself.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? The beginning --I was thinking about him and on the side, felt the warm "air" coming up and over me--yet it took a second for my to shift my attention to it and consciously pay attention to it. I could feel the energy, though I didn't describe it that way to myself at the time. (I have since become more sensitive to feeling the energy fields (chi) of people, trees....) As I was shifting my consciousness from an intuitive knowing to a more conscious/rational knowing and telling myself that this cannot be--I must be imagining this--it dissipated off to my left. (It had come from the right of me.)
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Yes, as described. It seemed he was happy, surprised that there was life after death and having a good time with it. He wanted to send me a message that he had discovered this--share it with me and to let me know he was ok and having fun (something I'd rarely seen in his living life.)
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes, in the sense that I, like him was not making assumptions that there was life after death, a god.... (I got no sense he was telling me of a god as the religious describe it--just that he was alive and having fun and thought he'd let me know so I could know.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I have an ongoing inner conflict with --if this makes sense--believing what I know in my gut is real--I've grown up with people of both intense skepticism and pessimism, and a "Yeah, right; prove-it" , science only mentality and others who are more liberal and definitely believed in god in various ways.... I was also taught early to ignore my own experiences and opinions and to follow the teachings of others--ie. the version of Christianity of my mother....and that she knew best.... and later of other version of Christianity.... I was taught that playing with my psychic ability....was inviting Satanic influence..... that people no longer have that ability unless it was of deceiving spirits..... It has taken me years to shed these influences and learn to trust my inner self--which has often been more accurate. (ie. Sept 9 and 10, 2001 getting an overwhelming and sudden empathetic depression--not knowing what it was about--saying There is so much pain in the world! It's so intense....On Sept 11, I knew what it had been about.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I felt surprised, neutrally observant, then I "understood" what it was and felt pleasant and happy--serene
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
I guess the sense of that came later. I had felt no particular need of "healing" at that time. I had in years prior and while it was pretty much resolved, there had been some things left incomplete. I hadn't thought of it until this question, but yes, I'd say since then, I've felt ok with it all--no unfinished business.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was having an unexpected contact from my father and to know he was not only alive and ok, but it was heartwarming to know he was having fun and thought to let me know.
"worst" part is that I believe it real, but struggle with "living that out loud"
for fear of being labeled a crackpot and not being taken seriously. I am slowly
getting over this fear. Some people in my life vicious.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
Describe: More open
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?
It wasn't life changing. I was open to the possibility, and knew intuitively that it's likely, yet mentally felt it unlikely. This was another piece of experiential evidence to add to my list about trusting these things as likely to be real. I believe them to likely be real, but I am aware us humans can fool ourselves. However, I've had so many other experiences now, that my "belief" is solidifying.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Became more open and more confident that what I know intuitively is in fact real.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
As I've said, it helped to move my beliefs forward re. these things.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? Uncertain
I think I may have, but forget for sure or with who. (Too bad, eh!) (Hey, maybe it was with my Dad!)
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? felt contented, happy to know he was happy and still existed though in a different way
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
With this experience, I got a sense that he was affirming for me what I had suspected possible, and that he was surprised about it--life after death--and that it was pretty good.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Not with this experience.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
I've had various experiences prior to and after this experience.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? N0 comment
Not with that experience. I have had an out of body experience in my teens. Again, I "know" I had it yet I fight inside with internalizing external teachings that it didn't happen....
meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
No, not in that experience. I have experienced other beings at other times. And PS, talking about it with people who are open to this stuff is helping me face that my experiences are real.
Did you see a light? No
No, not with this experience. I did with the meditative experience I mentioned earlier.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
If they were skeptical about the possibility, they assumed I was a head case and if they were open to the possibility or already believed it, they accepted it accordingly without judging me. Of course, I have become increasingly uncomfortable sharing my "reality" with those who put me down for having it.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I'm glad you're doing the research. I'd like to see your website and results. I am not very knowledgeable about using the internet and don't know where to find it.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
You asked good questions and I answered them as best I could
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. You might ask about other related experiences, but then you're researching this specific type of experience.