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Experience description March 2012:  

I had been spending most of my time in bed, about a month. My family was getting worried that I was giving up on life, and I was. This was my twin, my best friend, and the love of my life. As I sat up in bed crying with my head face down in my pillow, I felt a comfort come over my body. As I pulled my head away from pillow I saw my Twin sister Roslee standing in front of me, SOOO beautiful, wearing a white gown, with a beautiful light around her. She smiled at me and said, "I love you very much and you must go on, you are not finished here there are things that you will need to complete. Then when you pass on from this world, I will be here to take your hand." She then said "I Love You.", and she and the light faded away. I believe that she new that I was giving up and that she needed to let me know she would be back for me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Beautiful is what comes to mind.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?           

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Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    I heard every word and could see her beautiful face and red hair clearer than anything I have ever seen.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  I heard every word as she spoke her mouth moved.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Exactly as when she was alive.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No Way

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No, I was young and in very good health

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

She stood beautifully in a bright light, in white; smiling at me

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            crystal

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all of her, in a white gown

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       she died at 24, and she looked that age

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            she looked extremely healthy. My sister and I were very athletic and she looked very healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No way

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Uncertain

How long did the experience last?        About 1-2 Minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Sudden in the beginning, then she faded with the light when she left

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

She was very happy to see me. We absolutely loved each other.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  She told me it was not my time, there were things I needed to do before I would be with her again

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I saw her as clear as day and no one could tell me different. I no she was there, and I have felt her with me over the past 25 yrs

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No        

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I wanted to die I felt that I could not live without her. If someone could die from grief it could have been me. I lost my dad and this was different it felt like part of me was gone and I wanted to die.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

She came so that I may live.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      There was no worst. She looked amazing, and I new we would be together again

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I am very happy and not afraid of death.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
   Yes     I knew that I could go on.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     Our loved ones know when we are in trouble or too much pain to go through. God lets them comfort us so that we can move on.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

No but we would have if we new this was going to happen. We were more than close-TWINS we looked and sounded alike

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes I help women who suffer from Drug/alcohol Dependence

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt like living, I was happy and excited about living, and dying

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I knew that my life had meaning and I would do things needed to be done. I also know for sure that she will be back when I die.

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

We were very close and aware of each others feelings and emotions. Even when we lived apart

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Yes

Beautiful and bright

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Yes, but very few. This was very personal

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Uncertain

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       There is life after death..

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

At that time I stayed in my room; in bed only eating food about 1 time a day. No substances/ no alcohol

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 

 

Experience description July 2007:  

My twin sister contacted me about one month after she passed. I was in my room crying and she appeared to me in a beautiful white light. She told me that I had to go on with my life, that there were things in my life that had to be done. She told me that she loved me, and that when I passed on she would be there to take my hand. then she was gone. She looked like an angel.

Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience:  The night that she died I woke up screaming that something terrible had happened to my sister. I immediately called my mom and she told me that she had just passed on. no one new she was sick. the second time we communicated was about one month after she passed. I was in my room crying and I looked up and Roslee was standing in front of me in a bright light, dressed in white. She told me that I needed to go on with my life, that there were things that I needed to do and that she would be there when I passed on to take my hand. she told me she loved me, and then she was gone. this visit helped save my life because I felt that I could not go one without my twin. I was almost suicidal.


Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No  It saved my life

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    what she said to me was clear and direct.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  She talked to me

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           It was her voice.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO!

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   NO!

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

I was in the light with her.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   beautiful is the only way to describe it

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  that she was there and she was beautiful and angelic

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  NO!

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

She was in a white light and looked more beautiful than I have ever seen her

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            clearer than anything I have ever seen

            How much of the deceased did you see?       her whole person

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       same age

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            she looked absolutely wonderful

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        about 2 minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         I looked up and she was in front of me and when she left she faded away. Like the energy , the light faded

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

straight LOVE

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  that I would do good things in my life and I had to go on.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           My sister (twin) came to save my life. She knew that I needed her.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I only felt love. MY sister and I were almost as one and she was more close to me than I can explain twins are closer than other family members. They are connected, mind and body and soul-Identical twins

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

She gave me the will to live

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I have missed my twin sister, and my best friend

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I love life and look forward to every day that I am blessed with

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     life and death are beautiful. Live life and make a difference

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     we all have a purpose that needs to be fulfilled.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

I never thought in a million years that she would not live and be in my life- we were twins we are suppose to live our lives together

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Just the fact that I am still alive-she saved my life

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I knew I had to go on, and I know that when I leave this world, she will be waiting for me

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I will go on to help people that live in the pain and suffering of drug addiction.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I lost contact with her children and she guided me to them. I am now involved in there lives and am helping the youngest one with his addiction issues

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Yes

the brightest light, the whitest light I have ever seen

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They do not understand

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       life is about loving, not judging

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No   I was totally aware of my surroundings

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?        I felt I was dying when my sister was dying

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    study the subject of twins that lose a twin