On several different occasions a big black monarch with only one blue stripe on each wing came to me, each time staying longer.  My daughter died unexpectedly in June from a clot to the lung.  The last butterfly came about 6 weeks after she died and stayed with me over 45 minutes.  Finally after being on my shoe, back and arm, it laid out on the cement directly in front of me with its wings completely open very still.  On her birthday 2.5 months after she died a huge all yellow monarch came in the same place as I saw the black butterfly.  I took this to mean she was happy.

Another time I was very upset and crying about the way her Dad had treated me my whole life.  We were divorced from the time she was 5.  I went to bed and as soon as I looked up at the ceiling there was a quilt of thousands of pinpoints of light.  Each square was a different design.  It seemed to be hanging from maybe invisible poles on each corner to secure it but air could go through the quilt and it would ripple moving the designs slightly as air passed through it.  I instantly knew it was my daughter and it was a present she had made me.  I knew that in death she finally understood all I had been through and was comforting me.  The next day I got the connection-it was a comforter she had given me,

Was this experience difficult to express in words?

No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?

Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         

No

Did you see the deceased?       

No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?  

No

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         

sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?         

No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?        

Experience was definitely real

          Was the experience dream like in any way? 

No

Butterfly once sat on a bush by me and waved his wings completely open and completely closed slowly like waving goodbye-I never got to say goodbye to my daughter-this was the first visit with the black butterfly-

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:        

in awe

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         

Yes, I stopped thinking of ways to ---- myself

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?      

Yes   

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?            Yes   

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes   

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?      No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          happier

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?           Yes