It was late around 11:00PM, I got ready for bed, turned off the light and was very distressed and crying at this time.  But instantly, I felt someone in the bedroom, this had been his bedroom.  I never saw anything, but I heard his voice clearly say; "  Please do not grieve,  I am fine , you must live your life fully,  I will always be watching over you, You so much to offer yet in your life, it will be a long time before I see you, but when it is your time, I will be there for you."  At that moment I felt my sadness wash away, and the most intense love washed over me as though someone poured warm oil over my head.    From that day on I have a more intense compassion for my life and others. 

My husband and I moved 1 year later onto the property.  Though is mobile home was sold and moved off the property.  I still feel a sense wanting to spend a lot of time at home in the house we placed on the farm.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   The voice that communicated with me that night was of my fathers.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  I heard the voice, not sure how to answer.  I do not think I manifested the though.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Yes - My father still had a slight Swedish Accent, and the voice was the same that spoke to me.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No, the ranch house is a 1/4 mile from the next farm, no one other than me was there that night.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   None

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Uncertain

I felt as though warm oil was being poured over, a very intense feeling of love, but I do not think my body was touch it was more spiritual maybe.  really not sure.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   My father was not a touching person.  This was feeling  I felt was not normal.  I know he loved me, he just never said the words.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Love and Compassion and the sense that he wanted to comfort me, and maybe this was his way of sharing the deep feelings he had but never said them when he was alive.  Uncertain.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  None

How long did the experience last?        It was hard to determine, to me it seemed a long time. I was more stunned after the experience and I think I lost time

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Very sudden at the beginning, but the experience after was very intense and did not allow me to have a restful night.  I was not afraid, but shaken my the experience and it last to this day.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

He died alone in the house and I had breakfast the morning of his death.  We really never said goodbye, I sensed his sorrow for how I felt after he died, and it was as if he felt my emotional pain as much I did.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  I always wondered if he really loved me and this was communicated in his communication.   My mother died of cancer and my father of heart disease,  I remain healthy today and being treated medically for Hypertension.  My father was always afraid of me getting cancer and dying as my mother did.  I am healthy today.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          I am different today from this, I am more compassionate in my life and take time to enjoy each day.  I make sure people know how I feel about them in a positive way.  It is as though life has more value than before, I have spent many years being educated, successful and etc.  Now, I work less, enjoy the beauty around me and I really think this experience was a gift of life.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I am still sad of this passing, but I am able to talk about it and do so to many people.  It is also interesting that a portion of my professional position is to a member of the Ethics Board,  I tend to seek my heart more now than from a clinical stand point.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

            Describe:      Yes - As stated previously

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes

I think each of us are given a mission in life, and with the stress that we encounter daily, we loose focus.  I think I was re-directed and I am much more in tune to people, beauty, and life than before.  I have no fear of what is come, either war, biblical events, I am ready and walk in the name of the lord.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            A little unsettled emotionally, I wanted more communication and there was none provided.  Was this real and was this a Guarding Angel, Holy Spirit or my actual father.    I have learned to accept the experience as a positive part of my life, and I do dream frequently of my father and the dreams are always good.  I never experienced bad vibes from the experience.  I shared this alot, because I think for those of us who are left behind, we have the hardest time adjusting.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes

It is interesting people I know what have lost loved ones, seek me for comfort.  I openly share with others and hope they find comfort.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes