I was lying in my bed, with the lights off, watching TV, I was having a hard time falling asleep, so I decided to turn away from the TV so it would not distract me. I turned away, and crunched up into a ball under my covers. All of a sudden everything was black, I thought I was asleep, until I could feel my body being raised up above my bed my eyes were wide open and I could not see the light from the TV or the clock I was facing. As my body continued to lift in the air, slowly, I could not move a muscle, I tried and tried, but was paralyzed.
I was then
turned on my back facing the sky I could not see, feeling the emptiness
underneath me was baffling, then out of the darkness these large planet like
figures were flying passed my, they were so loud I though for sure someone would
come into my room from the loud noise, these planets came so close to me, I felt
as if I was not moving at all, that these planets were the ones moving.
Then, darkness again, all around, I tried to scream, because I knew my mom wasn't sleeping at this time (1 am) and she was in the other room, so as I try to scream my mouth wouldn't move, all I heard was faint moaning coming from my mouth, barley loud enough for myself to hear. Then a light showed itself, I stopped trying to scream, it was very peaceful, secure, it was beautiful. then a silhouette of a man, about it his 20's, with hair down to his shoulders, leans over me, I starred into his dark featureless face, and I knew it was my father, who had just recently passed away, it was the best feeling of nirvana to have him there with me, I knew he was smiling although I couldn't see it. His outline looked exactly like how he use to as a young adult. Then he slowly leaned back, out of sight. Then another silhouette appeared, this time of a woman, she had big curly frizzy hair, like my aunt, my dad's sister, had as a young adult.
It was a
peaceful moment, she too had a featureless bust (as that was all I could see on
both of them, their bust). then she too leaned back out of sight. Then it was
dark again, and I flew motionlessly backward through the space I recently
traveled, still in the position of a curled little ball, and I could then feel
the presence of my room, and I could feel my body being turned back onto my side
and gently placed back onto my side, I then saw the glow of my clock, and I
tried to move my body and I slowly was able to move my fingers, then my arms,
them my torso, then my legs, but I laid still, I still couldn't see much, for my
TV was now off. I laid in bed for the next few hours, not moving a muscle, I
was very scared, I didn't know what had just happened.
Did you see the deceased? Yes
they were both youthful, as they had died in their forties. And I only saw their silhouettes, no features of their bodies, I only saw their bust (chest up)
How clearly did the deceased appear? solid silhouettes
How much of the deceased did you see? bust
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? did not appear they age they died, they were young adults when I saw them, in their forties when they died
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? I saw no health problems, only black silhouettes
Is there any possibility what
you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Uncertain
How long did the experience last? about 10 minutes
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? (in the beginning... all of a sudden, it was black, as it was light moments ago. and at the end it was more gradual, where it took me a minute or two to be back in my bed after the figures had left
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
they were happy, they did not want me to fear them, they wanted me to engage in the bliss they felt, and I did
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I was awake the whole time, I know I was, because I was not tired, so how could I have fallen asleep so quickly after I turn away from the TV? I could feel so much energy around me the whole experience, as I can not in a dream. I also know my dad would do that for me, he knows I can handle it, and I am the only one in the whole family (brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, parents, immediate family) who is dealing well with his death, I feel its because of this experience I am doing so well.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: at first, very frightened, then when I saw the figures, I was at total peace, a state if nirvana, after the figures had left, I was back to frightened
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I am doing so much better dealing with the loss of my father knowing where he is now, now that I have seen him in such a beautiful peaceful utopia, I am now jealous of him, and can't wait to see him and be where he is in that wonderful place I barely got a glimpse of
What was the best and worst part of your experience? best, seeing the silhouette of my father, and the feeling it gave me. the worst, starting the experience, because I had no idea what was happening to me, I couldn't move, I was scared.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: Daily life is different, I live for me now, not for my mom, or sisters, I live to do what I want to do, I am a full time student at an art college learning to become a photographer, which I might not have done previously before this experience
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I am not afraid to die, I can almost say, I can't wait. I want to be where that place is, I want to spend eternity there!
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
I know understand more mentally of the life after death, I now feel my father with me all the time, and I understand when and why he's there when he is, I respect my life so much more now than I ever have in my life. I want to be happy now because I don't know how much time I have left. I openly talk about death, a lot, it scares people, but I never talk about it negatively, it is such a wonderful thing that we will all experience, so why try to run from that. Live each day as if you might not have a tomorrow, but always ALWAYS be prepared for a tomorrow. I love my life, and I don't even really have a good one (some might say)
What emotions did you feel during the experience? very frightened, and very confused
Did you see a light? Yes
yes, a peaceful, bright white light
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, they were amazed and said I was lucky to see them. I might have influenced them, I am not sure
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
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Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
your questions challenged me to think a little deeper about the experience, I gave you as much information as I could, thank you