My son was an officer in the Marines training to fly jets.  Someone offered him an Oxycontin,  It suited his thrill seeking chemistry I think and off he went.  It was too expensive at $80.00 a pill so when he ran out of money he tried Heroin which was much cheaper and stronger.  We thought he was flying but in fact he had been caught by military and put in rehab.  We were beyond shocked.  This was a goal-oriented, disciplined, courageous, hardworking, wonderful young man who was fulfilling a dream.  He had flown solo.  Now he was throwing it all away. It was heartbreaking.  They sent him home even though on active duty.  We put him in Betty Ford but after 2 months he hooked up with a girl and got kicked out.  We put them in a hotel and he was died 4 days later.

2 days after he died, I was lying alone on my bed and I clearly heard "mama"  Mama". The voice sounded like a young child or sickly (my son deteriorated from a big, fit Marine, to a thin, gaunt, young man) The next night.  It was about 2:00am.  My husband was beside me sleeping, no one else was in the house then I heard my son's voice coming from another room.  He said 2 or 3 words but I couldn't understand them. That night I had a dream that he was standing in my bedroom doorway looking at me smiling, wearing fatigues.  He took long purposeful strides over to my bed and quickly kneeled down on one knee with his face almost directly in front of my face.  It really startled me and I awoke with a start.  It seemed so real.  I saw colors and designs and his face was healthy and perfectly defined.   The next night, I was in his room, on his bed, in the dark, crying really hard when suddenly, there seemed to be an energy.  I asked, "Tyler ,  if that's you, can you make a sound?" and immediately the closet door clicked.  I asked again and the door clicked 5 times in a row altogether,  Then stopped.  Hasn't done it before or since.

About 3 months after he passed, I was in his room watching TV.  My husband was asleep.  All of a sudden, one of his guitar strings made a sound.  It scared me and I left the room.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes 

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes  

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     I heard "mama"  "mama"  and his voice with a garbled few words  

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?   the voice was external.  Mam seemed to come from my room right behind me near my bed.  The garbled words came from a couple of rooms away. 

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     When I heard "Mama"  it sounded like a young child or someone sick     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   no  

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   Yes  

Describe where and how you were touched:     when I was lying in his room on his bed, I was sobbing, just before I felt a presence I felt what seemed like two fingers lightly touching me in the eyes.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Tyler and I were always playing jokes with each other.  Poking me in the eyes to cheer me seems like something he would do.  

Was anything communicated by the touch?   I felt he was saying "I'm okay mom"

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   It could have been twitches from nerves as I was crying really hard but it's never happened again or before.

Did you see the deceased?   Yes    In my dream I saw him.  He looked fit and healthy and was smiling.  His body movements were purposeful and forceful.

How clearly did the deceased appear?   He was solid

How much of the deceased did you see?    Entire body

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   the age he died

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    He no longer looked sickly from drug use                       

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     He was purposeful and happy

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    They were random acts and I have always had "things" happen to me that could not be explained.  I believe I am sensitive to whatever else is out there.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No            

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Best part was thinking that maybe he is somewhere that I just can't be right now but maybe will be when I die and maybe I will see him again

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No                

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    I felt there really must be something after death  we just don't have all the info yet

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No            

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    Yes    A very slight or fine swirling light

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    some people are interested, others think it's wacky and just tolerate my telling them           

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes    When I was about eighteen I awoke to what sounded like angels singing, I was then filled with an incredible feeling of peace and felt as if I was part of everything and everything was part of me.  It was incredible.