Since TC's death, I have had numerous experiences. The first was just after his passing - he came to me in what did not feel like a dream, but I was asleep. I was about to open the glass door onto my back porch when I saw his reflection in the glass. He was sitting in the passenger seat of my sister's jeep in the driveway. The top of the jeep was off so it was easy to see him. I instantly wanted to turn around, but he spoke to me before I could and said "don't turn around, you can only see me in the glass." I began to cry, and told him that I needed him and loved him. He very calmly said that he just needed me to know that he was okay and that he loved me so much. He went on to say that he would be with me and not to worry. I reached out towards his reflection and he reached out to me, that was it...his reflection vanished and I woke up. I remember feeling like it had really happened, and being very confused. I have only told a handful of people about my experience because I was afraid people would think I was crazy. I know it was him - without a doubt it was my TC.
Since that time, I have had numerous experiences with the last one being on the day after his death anniversary. I travel each year to his grave - this year it as in July. He is buried in South Georgia where his mom and grandparents were from. While I was there I picked several weeds from the grave site while I was talking out loud to him. I tossed the weeds over outside the grave and then something came over me that compelled me to pick up the weeds, place them in the cup I had in the car, and return with the weeds to Atlanta. When I got home I placed the weed in a flower pot. My husband, who is a wonderful and very understanding man, asked me what in the world I was doing. I explained to him where the weed came from and he just smiled. That was in early July. TC died on Labor Day in 1987. This past Labor Day came and went - 21 years since he had passed. It was the first time I had gone through the day without reliving the whole thing - somewhat of a sense of peace finally after 21 years. That night I sat in the bathroom and realized that for the first time in 21 years I had not cried for him on that day. I asked him to give me a sign - of course there was no lightning bolt or other immediate sign that we all expect, instead the next morning I woke up, went outside to take the trash to the street and there sat in the flower pot the weed I had picked with about 150 beautiful tiny pink blooms. I began to cry as once again I knew that was TC's way of connecting with me. I got my husband - he could not believe it either. Since that date the weed has never bloomed again. I get signs every day and know that if I accept them as communication and not coincidences I can feel his presence with me.
These are just a few of
my experiences...it is a wonderful feeling knowing he is my guardian angel...I
still miss and love him as much today as I did the last time I saw him but know
that he is at peace.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: His voice, or his guitar, or smelled his cologne just as I experienced something
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? It was all through the mind
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? yes
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? absolutely not
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
no, I have reached for him and him for me and it felt like we connected but no physical contact to my knowledge
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? very familiar and so wonderful
Was anything communicated by the touch? yes, it was if we had spoken 1000 words without saying a thing
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you see the deceased? Yes
He looked just as he did at 19 when he died
How clearly did the deceased appear? it is always a reflection or him passing by me - we never touch except through emotion
How much of the deceased did you see? all
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? yes he was 19
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? no
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? I have smelled his cologne but there is no one else around
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? Drakar Noir
Was anything communicated by the smell? No, just made me feel like he was next to me
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
How long did the experience last? seconds
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? don't know -
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? No
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: It is just something I know and don't need proof - I mean I am a grown woman, happily married with 2 kids - I have moved on with my life but know that the loved I shared with Trey was beyond our years...
Was the experience dream like in any way? N0 comment
only because I was asleep when the first experience happened - or at least I think I was. Since that, I have had physical experiences with lights, movement, sound, etc.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Sad because I realized he was really gone, but at peace that he truly loved me.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I was devastated.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? knowing TC is with me
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact?
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? sadness, confusion, but now peace that he is with me
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Uncertain
I have had several experiences that my husband has witnessed
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? Yes
yes, as there have been many experiences and many different ways he has connected with me
Have you shared this experience with others?
N0 comment very few...only my closest friends and family, or others who have talked to me about things they are questioning
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I share this with hopes it will make others realize they are not crazy
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
never done any drugs or even smoked
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
Well, I would consider this a spiritual event
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes