I was wakened by a very bright light. I know Tom was in the light. A ray of the light came shooting at me. It shot me in the heart. At first I thought, I was dying. The ray hurt for a moment. But then, my whole body became warm. It was the calmest feeling of love. I knew that Tom was inside my heart. But he has been since the day I met him. After the warm feeling, I drifted back to sleep. Tom never said a word on this experience.

He has talked to me in other encounters.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?      the light shot out a ray at my heart. and it hurt, then turned warm

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  I felt he was telling me he was in my heart

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no

Did you see the deceased?         No

not this time.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No comment

How long did the experience last?        only a few minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         beginning was sudden. but he faded away at the end

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

He was calm and at peace. I felt his love

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was happy to have the visit. Tears of joy. Every time I have an encounter with Tom, I am happy and it calms down my grief.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

It lessens my grief a little bit.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      worst, was that he went away. best, was that I knew and felt his love.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I feel that he is within my heart. and this was his message to me, that he is fine.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes     I always knew there was an afterlife, but to experience it was unbelievable.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

Yes, Tom and I said he was to contact me. He had cancer, so we knew he would die first.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Joy, that he is pain free. Love, that he still loves me.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Yes

A bright white light, with rays coming out of the light

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I only shared the encounter with 2 people, who also believe in the after life