Michael A's ADC

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Experience description:  

We were on a boating trip when the engine died. The anchor wouldn't hold our position and we were blown into the rocks. Eileen fell out of the boat and climbed onto the ledge. I jumped to her side knowing she was hurt. She said she was alright at which I responded, "no your not, Hon."   Just then I saw a clear ball full of swirling colors, the size of a basketball leave her right side. It was attached by a stem to her right side. When the stem separated from her body she fell over and I said aloud there goes the essence of Eileen. Like I knew what was going on inside of me. I continued with CPR thinking she'll come back but that never happened. Then depression set in with the reality that she was truly gone.

Several times thought the next year late at night I could smell her but it was only for a minute or two but I knew she was visiting me! My father had three daylight visits where she would tell him everything would be Okay! She was fully clothed and looked completely normal when this happened. It shook him up because he truly thought once you died you were gone, till you meet again on the other side. I don't think she visited me in this manner for fear I would try to join her and I still had three kids to raise.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           Whatever scent she had through life is what I smelled only stronger than when she was here.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     see above

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   No

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        No I would get up and hunt for her perfume or lotion and it was always in a closet in another room.

How long did the experience last?        About a year.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         I don't remember when it ended but it had to be about the time I started dating!

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          I seen it, experienced it and lived through it.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. Miss her and hope that she will be waiting for me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Describe:      I don't have the drive in business as I did before.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes, The continuity of life and the impact of all relationships.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Somewhat less sadness!

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes, During the event I felt a peace as this was all supposed to happen. That we had agreed to it before.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

Two months before her death I awoke at 2:00 a.m. actually hollering at her go ahead and leave me and see how fast I replace you! I was real mad at her and she was still sleeping. I didn't think of this until she was gone.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes, Some with unbelief others with interest and those who later lost loved ones thank me for sharing the story.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes