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Experience description:  

About the second week in August, My daughter was asleep in the living room and I in my bedroom. Sometime after 3:00 a.m. I felt very cold and wondered why it was so cold in August. As I rose to get another blanket, the sliding cupboard doors had changed colors from the usual beige to one, mauve and blue and the other rose and pink. In front there was an ornate grill, black. I wondered what it was and assumed that I was dreaming. I turned to the night table where I had a talking clock and it told me the time. I wasnt dreaming so I leaned back and suddenly from above the door to the bedroom, an apparition entered through the wall. Terror is the only way that I can describe how I felt. The apparition was quite large, a cloud, shaped like a woman holding an infant in front of her. It made its way down to the edge of the bed on the side where Shirley slept.  After about10 seconds it returned the way it came and out through the wall. Ten seconds later or there about, the doors returned to their original beige and I collapsed into a very deep sleep.

I tired to call out to my daughter but nothing came out of me. I was absolutely terrified for I have never witnessed anything like this in my life.  In the morning Chavie told me that at the same time, she heard a door banging. She rose to close the doors but everything was shut so she went back to bed.

I couldnt get this phenomenon out of my mind. I didnt know whom to ask so I went to the Synagogue next door and spoke to the Rabbi. He listened to my story and then told me that no doubt my sub-conscious and conscious mind were in conflict with each other and that I should forget about this nonsense. I asked him that I knew he was a Rabbi but I didnt know that he was also a psychiatrist. He should have had the sense of realizing my discomfort and given me a reply such as I dont know or something similar

A few weeks later, I was again wakened up by being shaken. I again woke to find the doors of the cupboard ,as I described it above, but no apparition. By now, I was obsessed, I had to find out what I was seeing.  I was awake and I wasnt sleeping.

Again, a month or so later, this time I woke to the bed being shaken with the same results. The doors changed but in addition, part of the wall was dark green and light green that extended into the living room area.

The third time the bed felt like it had been lifted from the back and changes in the door.

The fourth time, I woke up because the entire bed being lifted up and setting down and again, the doors changing and the addition of the green color not to the doors but to the wall and the color extended to the living room.

The fifth time I woke up after hearing a terrific bang. It was as if the kitchen cupboards had fallen,  in addition, the doors changing as before and the entire room was bathed in green. So much light that you could actually read a book.

Then from the ceiling, a small cloud of white with Shirleys front part of her head protruding appeared directly above the bed, Shirley was talking, her lips were moving but I couldnt hear anything. This lasted for about 20 seconds and then all returned to normal.

My attempts to find the meaning of what I had seen was not successful. A friend gave me a clipping from a book, written by a Kabbalist, a doctor Arieh Kaplan who was also a scientist and passed away tragically many years ago and he wrote:

YOU HAVE SEEN THE SCHINAH (FEMININE FORM OF GOD). IT COMFORTS YOU AND LOVES YOU AND KEEPS YOU SAFE. DO NOT FEAR IT. 

I really didn't know if I had seen the Schinah but it was comforting. It really doesnt end there. By this time my daughter had returned to Israel and she told her daughter, all that had happened. Since my granddaughter had become religious, she was afraid that my experience could be injurious to her unborn child. They contacted a Kabbalistic Rabbi in Jerusalem, the largest Synagogue of its kind in Israel. He told them that he will be at the Synagogue in Petach Tikva, (city in Israel) where she lives and they should meet him there.

They did, they met him as he left the Synagogue and told them the story. He said that he would convene a conference of Rabbis and wrote down the names of the entire family. He stressed that they should tell me TELL HIM NOT TO CALL HER.

He then proceeded to his car parked down the street and on the way he saw my son-in-law standing by his car. He approached him and said dont worry, everything will be alright.

The question is, how did he know who he was?

I always wondered why he said I shouldnt call her and a few months later, coming home from some activity, I went in to the bedroom, sat in a chair and said, Shirley, are you there?  Suddenly the doors started to change, as they did many times before, and I shouted out Stop, continue your journey and the doors faded.  This time there was no doubt as to my being awake......

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No                   

Did you see the deceased?   Yes    small cloud and the front of her face protruding. Her lips were moving but no sound

How clearly did the deceased appear?   solid

How much of the deceased did you see?    just the front of her face

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   yes but all white

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    none visible to me

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    absolutely not

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   No    

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:    Unexplainable things happening to me or my children over the years, mostly to myh children when I was present. I was awake during all the sightings. It was real.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    N0 comment   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Yes    I became more spiritual. I looked at death differently and i devoted myself and my musical talent to play for the infirmed, sick in addition to calling shut-ins.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    not knowing what I had seen

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Yes    Increased awareness. use mediation as a means to get closer to my God. Help people. Speak about my experiences to people willing to listen, even if they think I'm ready to be hospitalized   

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    Yes    I believe in a spiritual God..I believe we are not alone and that there are billions of universes ruled by a supreme power.

I do not believe in circumstances anymore but believe that our lives are controlled or partly controlled by God and we receive messages which allows us to make a choic.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    The realization that life on earth is only a step away from heaven. People are the same everywhere, regardless of religious or no religious orientation

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   Uncertain

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    Uncertain    partially witnessed by my daughter in another room

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        Yes    Have been witness to unexplained events and I started to question if I had any special powers. My reply is NO but if so, I don't know how to use them.

 Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    Yes    As always the doors of the cupboards were full of light as well as the room. In fact it was bright enough to be able to read

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    Some yes and some no. As above

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No   

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    Just that I received a visit from a neighbor, a priest, who said he had 5 minutes before he drives to another pulpit many hours away. He stayed for an hour and missed his connections. His reply of course was positive and reinforced me although we were not of the same religious persuasion.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No   

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Yes    I told it exactly how it happened and included by telling about strange events that happened over my life time.