The first time, I was at my Aunt's home after the funeral and a bright, white light flew across the room and burst into a star burst on the door knob. No one else saw that when it happened. 

The second time, we had just gotten back from the hospital seeing my Step Father in Law after he died. Outside the window there was a bright light that flashed and went away.  

The third time, I had a dream that I went down to my neighbor's house to see how "Bob" was doing. His wife told me she couldn't talk because "Bob" just died. The next day I received a phone call telling me that "Bob" passed away unexpectedly.  I didn't tell anyone about my dream, too embarrassed that if I had said something I could have possibly saved his life. Then when I saw his wife, we hugged and talked then she said she couldn't talk anymore and went inside the house, just like in my dream.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

Yes   I was afraid that people would think I was mental.

How long did the experience last?       

All experiences only lasted a few seconds. If you blinked you would miss it. The dream was a dream.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

All experiences were sudden and unexpected.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          

All these things have happened to me more than once to just pass it off as nothing.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

All of the events happened at different times. I was doing my usual routines with the family. I guess you could say I was stressed and tired.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

With two of my experiences, I felt relieved to know that they are in heaven, but since I didn't see the light with the third person, I hope that he is in heaven. I still would like a sign that he is in heaven to comfort me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

The first two was knowing that my loved ones are in Heaven are the best parts. The worst is that I didn't warn anyone about my dream. I felt had I took the dream more serious, then "Bob" maybe would still be alive.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

Yes                 Describe:     

I will from here on out take my dreams more serious and try to handle certain dreams to prevent any harmful happenings.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I knew that there was a God and heaven.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?           

Uncertain      I still have a fear that some people think that this is an evil thing and I don't want to get caught up in any kind of witch craft. I was told by a church music director that I had a "gift" and needed to learn about it.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?       

Yes

My cousin and I both agreed that when we died, we would let the other know that we were okay and we were in heaven with our loved ones that have passed on.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         

Yes Yes, my dream became reality when I received the phone call telling me that my friend/neighbor has passed away.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

I felt confused, excited and hopeful.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

I don't know if this is what you call a "gift". It just started before my cousin's death.

Did you see a light?          

Yes

Two times I saw a flash of light. The first time the flash flew across the room and exploded into a star burst on the door knob.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?           

No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I have shared this with a man who has died on the operating table and went to heaven and came back to earth.  He seemed to relate to my "gift".

 

Other people don't react the way I had hoped they would making me think that they don't want to believe me.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      

I want to find answers to this "gift" and how to manage it to help others.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          

No  

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Yes

I hope to get answers to how to handle my "gift". 

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