There were several strange things happening prior to the death of my beloved grand-mother. She was suffering from dementia for 5 years an I did all the caring etc. on my own for years to save her a nursing home, but at some point you don't have any power left and my family insisted to try giving her to a nursing home for demented people. I was against that and she lived there from May 2010 til shortly prior to her Death in October 2010.
4 weeks before the final stroke happened I had some kind of prophetic dream. I dreamed I was alone in my home and watched the lottery. I won some amount, but not the jackpot. Somehow I knew that my Grand-Mother is dead. The next day I told my family and friends about this and I noted it in my calendar.
2 weeks later the exact dream happened in real life. One week later my grand-mother had an severe stroke and died on week later.
In the night of her death I had some kind of little shared death experience, but I don't really can recall it.
What I can recall is that at 5 am in this very morning it knocked on my door. I instantly jumped out of bed and was starring at the door, where it knocked again. I was to afraid to open it, but I´m 100% sure this was in some way my deceased Granny. I lived at this place there with here for a very long time and since she was ill I lived there again.
After and shortly
before her funeral I somehow believe to have felt her presence from time to
time, but I sadly don't have any final proof that it was her.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Real!
Was the experience dream like in any way? The mentioned dream was like a dream but the knocking was real!
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Afraid
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
You want to believe that life does not end, but it could still be just a fairy tale.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Knowing that her "spirit" could have been there and that there is more to life than we see...
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? No
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact?
As a child I joked with my Grandmother that she has to send me a letter from heaven.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Confused and terrified
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
I sadly knew somehow my dream is going to come true
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Over the years I had some remarkable deja-vu or deja-reves as you call them.