My father had died some weeks ago and I was in mourning.

I was unable to accept two circumstances in his dying.

1. that he, a very headstrong person had been crushed by a stroke. I could not stand the humiliation for him, that I felt in this

2. that I, as my mother called me from the house to come and help them, had, unaware of his stroke, not recognized any urgency and had obstinately been going on with my work thus delaying his rescue.

In my grief those two circumstances tortured me as unnecessary and unjust and I was fighting fate.

At the related incident, I was sitting by the oven in my work room, sobbing and inner-talking.

Suddenly the presence of my deceased father approached my from the left side, putting his hand on my shoulder and instantly comforting me to happiness. He made my know, without words, that everything was just right and nothing was there to complain about. So, within less than a second I was all content and reconciled and just sure, that he was all joy.

After that, I have been sad that he passed away, but everything felt right.

My point, why I am sharing this experience is, that I have heard of theories suggesting the brain produces some sort of hallucinatory field, the light and unconditional love being merely phenomena of physical response to extreme stress.

Yet for me I can say, I was in no danger whatsoever. The stress level I had at that point was definitely below that I had when my father was actually dying.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     It felt like raving non-acceptance had been switched into its opposite, complete love within no time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The experience happened immediate, no chronology

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I am rather a sceptic. Here for once I was absolutely sure and absolutely contented.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   It did not feel like a difference

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   communication was non-spoken, more like simultaneously shared knowledge and emotion

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   joy, contentment  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
my father

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   My deceased father, as described above

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Within less than a second I was all content and reconciled and just sure, that he was all joy.

It felt like simultaneously shared knowledge and emotion

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (life after death)?   Yes   I was meeting my father who had passed away some weeks ago. I cannot but perceive this as an after earthly life encounter.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Uncertain   My father did not seem disconnected from me in the way an earthly being does. There was no separation as for thought or emotion.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes meaning or purpose?   No   Only that father was perfectly happy with what had seemed unbearable to me. The passed hardships (as estimated by me) did not seem to matter to him at all.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Uncertain   Only that father was perfectly happy with what had seemed unbearable to me. The passed hardships (as estimated by me) did not seem to matter to him at all.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Uncertain   Special knowledge of the perfect acceptability of my fathers death and its circumstance.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I had believed in life after death before. Non-constistent was the perfect happiness of my father with what I had assessed as unbearable.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Before, I had believed in a life after death, after I am sure of it.

After, I believe that there is no absolute knowing of good or bad.

After, I believe that conflicts one has had with deceased people can be solved even after death.

After, I believe the deceased are approachable if meaningful.

My experience directly resulted in:   Slight changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Uncertain   Before, I had believed in a life after death, after I am sure of it.

After, I believe that there is no absolute knowing of good or bad.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   Before, I had believed in a life after death, after I am sure of it.

After, I believe that there is no absolute knowing of good or bad.

After, I believe that conflicts one has had with deceased people can be solved even after death.

After, I believe the deceased are approachable if meaningful.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Before, I had believed in a life after death, after I am sure of it.

After, I believe that there is no absolute knowing of good or bad.

After, I believe that conflicts one has had with deceased people can be solved even after death.

After, I believe the deceased are approachable if meaningful.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Some people have similar experiences. Those who don't either try to convince me I was hallucinating etc. or say they wish, they could believe it (those, who are afraid of death, mainly).

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It felt as real as all I encounter, only on a different level.

My mother had told me of similar experiences of hers, so I had no problem believing it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   It felt as real as all I encounter, only on a different level.