He passed away at his age of 64, never interested into any spirituality or religion. I know he was living of fear of illnesses and death. Maybe anger or something else, he never speak of. But I feel, he was never ready to leave. He was shoving his presence with the broken water in the house or a smoke in the middle of leaving room.

One month after his funeral my granddad passed away, too.  At the age of 84. And he was really traditional catholic all his life. His funeral was very peaceful.

After few months I experienced tiredness and pressure on my chest. One night my sleep was disturbed by my granddad. He approached to me, his hand stretched closed to me as he reached my dad to fade him out of me. He said to my dad: Martin it was enough. His voice was strict but without anger.  It was like a scene in Ghost with Patrick Swayze. They where both kind of white smoke.

I am still looking for an answer as what this meant, why he had chosen me, is there something for me to learn, what should I do with this information. This topics are not really for wide public, so can't speak to anyone about it. But coincidence brought me a book from Anita Moorjany and the contact for you, so here I am with my story.

Maybe I find my answer here.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    All the time

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   at the day of funeral, I was very present as day before we have been travelling 16 hours and I was constantly thinking and asking him to wait for me. He passed away few hours he saw me and my family.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I never had a chance to see a ghost or passed people. But it was so normal, pleasant without fear. I was wondering how other people can't see the same. It was part of the reality.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   no special hearing experience. Was more about feeling that hearing.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   neutral, but after my dad left my body, I felt lighter and better. But very strange with lots of question marks around me.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 


During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (life after death)?   Yes   I could feel it that he is fine now, better continuing.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   don't have any believes

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   this experience was more real that anything else.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   feel a bit lost, still looking for answers

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   more gratitude for everything around me

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     just and idea, that my dad was part of me or was he parasitising through me?

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   No 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   it was more through perception, but awakening from real night sleep. Suddenly this world has no sense to me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   It was more dramatic, up and down. Some people turned away from me without any prior reason.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   no

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   .