My boyfriend of 6 years passed away suddenly in a motorcycle accident about 8 months ago. I have been praying earnestly for an opportunity for one last moment with him, as I never got an opportunity to say Good Bye. I finally got it, about 6 months after his passing.
I was asleep, clearly in a dream state. I dreamt that I was at my childhood home, visiting with my mother and sisters around the kitchen table. Suddenly, Keith appeared, standing opposite me, behind my Mother. I asked, "Keith, how can you be here? Did you not die? What are you doing here?". He reached his hand out to mine. I took his hand, and he led me to a back room. He began showing me details about the back room, asking me if they were familiar. It really got my attention, because he had never known this home, and couldn't possibly know these things about my house. He also showed me a place on the back of his neck. It was something that I had never brought to his attention when he was living, but I always noticed it when I rode behind him on his motorcycle. I told him that I was aware that he was showing me these details to prove to me that this was real. He then looked deep into my eyes and told me that he had moved on, and that we could no longer be as we were before. I told him that I knew that, and then I panicked, as I had the sense that he was leaving. I then began begging him to stay. I told him that he was all that I thought about for the last 6 months, and that I really needed this, and to stay a while longer. Keith then gave me a huge, deep felt hug. It was so real. He said 'I know you do, Baby'. He then got onto one knee.
I immediately woke up. I was so mad at myself for waking up. The dream felt so good and so real and I wanted it to continue. I sat up for a few moments, recollecting what had occurred in the dream, and laid back down. I turned over and faced the outside edge of the bed and there was Keith again, in the same kneeling position that he had taken in the dream! My eyes were open, and I was wide awake! Keith allowed me to reach my arms out to him, and hold his face. I traced his lips with my fingers, and ran my hands over his head. We looked into each others eyes, and we communicated. I was not allowed to remember what was said, except for one thing. I asked him what he had been doing 'up there' for the last 6 months, and he told me that he 'had been getting reacquainted with the guy from Arkansas'.
I did not understand that at all. He knew so many people up there, why would he would be spending time with just one person from Arkansas? I did not feel like I had much time left with him to ask detailed questions, so I left it alone. I then told Keith that I loved him. At that moment, something amazing happened that is very hard to explain. He then rest his body alongside mine. I could feel him, as if he was really there. Then, (this is the part that is hard to describe), his body merged with mine. The only words I know to describe this is to say that he absorbed into me, and it was the most beautiful feeling in the world. I could feel his soul join with mine, and it filled me from head to toe. At the same time, I realized that God was giving to me exactly what I had been praying for, and I thanked him.
Later that day, I asked Keith's brother if Keith had any connection with Arkansas, and who he might know from there. His brother told me that the only relationship Keith had with Arkansas, was that that that was where he was born. That is something I never knew about Keith. Basically, Keith validated the authenticity of this experience by telling me he had been spending the last 6 months in Heaven getting reacquainted with HIMSELF, and the life he served here on earth. I had to find out on my own the meaning of his statement, and it proved to be totally relevant.
encourage anyone who desperately wants/need to communicate with a loved one to
pray to God and ask for it, and do not stop until your prayer has been
answered. It will happen if you persist.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I heard Keith's voice, and he spoke exactly as he would have if he was alive.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? In the dream state of my experience, the voice was external. When I awoke, the communication was internal; through a sense of 'knowing' what was communicated.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? Precisely similar!
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
He held my hand, led me along, and later he hugged me tightly. He then laid along side me briefly before the experience ended. I specifically remember feeling his legs intertwining between mine.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar. It was just as it had been.
Was anything communicated by the touch? Love and compassion.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Did you see the deceased? Yes
Keith looked as good as as I ever remember seeing him. He looked strong and healthy. He was clean shaven, and no longer had a mustache (he had always had one as long as I knew him).
How clearly did the deceased appear? Complete clarity.
How much of the deceased did you see? From the knees up.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? He seemed to be a few years younger than when he died.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Healthier and better looking than I had ever known him to be!
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? 25 minutes.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? It began gradually, as it it took some convincing from him that this was real. He left suddenly, but it was something that I knew was coming.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
He was at peace, but concerned about how he had left me.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes. I learned through clues that he had left that he was born in Arkansas. I received this knowledge as a validation that my experience was real.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I was given proof/validation that the experience was real through the knowledge that I gained, and the details that he showed me at the beginning of my experience.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes
At the beginning, it was a dream which Keith interrupted.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was happy and grateful.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain, I am better and worse for the experience.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
I got to experience Keith again, but sad that I probably never will again.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes, There is more ,after we leave this life!
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes, The Arkansas thing.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
grateful for the experience, but sad because I miss Keith so much, and I want
more of him.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Yes, but I was not allowed to remember.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, I am choosy about who I share with, but they all believe that it was a special gift and that it was real.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No