I remember trying to fall asleep - my son had passed on 7/6 at approximately 8:00 p.m. and the coroner came to my door at 2:00 a.m.  I don't believe I had slept until I laid my head on the pillow.  I remember concentrating on my son - I was in shock and disbelief - there is no way my son passed on and how they told me he did was just surreal.  I remember walking into my bedroom and my son was sitting on the chair in my room.  He got up to greet me and I said, "I knew you wouldn't leave me".  He said, "Mom, I'm gone" and I said, "No No NO please don't leave me - please keep coming back because you know how much mommy will miss you Kenny" and he touched my shoulder and said "Mom, I'll be back but it won't be for a long time - I have work to do and I'll be busy" and I cried and cried and he hugged me and I felt him - I felt his warmth, I felt his body, smelled his hair - I know I did.  All of sudden my 12-year old was standing in my room saying "mom, why are you hugging the chair, there is nobody in it". That was the only visit I had from him.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?          No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    I remember walking into my bedroom and my son was sitting on the chair in my room.  He got up to greet me and I said, "I knew you wouldn't leave me".  He said, "Mom, I'm gone" and I said, "No No NO please don't leave me - please keep coming back because you know how much mommy will miss you Kenny" and he touched my shoulder and said "Mom, I'll be back but it won't be for a long time - I have work to do and I'll be busy" and I cried and cried and he hugged me and I felt him - I felt his warmth, I felt his body, smelled his hair - I know I did.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?      He said it to me. It was as if he was standing right next to me - it was my son. He hadn't changed - he looked the same.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           It was my son's voice.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No, everyone was asleep.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes

my shoulder and he hugged me.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   It was how my son hugged me all the time.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Love, warmth, a sense of ease (at the time).

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           Impossible.

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

Exactly the same.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            As clear as he was to me when he was here.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       I don't remember looking for his feet - It was him standing in my room

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Same

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Looked great.  He was not ill.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?            Uncertain

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           The smell of hair conditioner.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     YES

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   I knew it was him.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?     NO

How long did the experience last?        Don't know. It seemed a good 15 minutes.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Don't remember.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

He was matter of fact.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           As a mother, I know my son was there with me. I felt him, smelled his hair and he told me he was gone.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I felt surreal. At the time of the ADC, I believed the coroner had made a mistake. But my son was very straightforward with me. He matter-of-factly told me he was gone.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

For a while, yes.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best was every part of the visit. The worst was when it ended.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            I went to Church as a child growing up. As an adult, I did not.  When my son passed, I went to Church twice and did not get what I was looking for so I sought out every paranormal, mediumship, spirituality, spiritualism book, movie, website I could find. During the 4 months I spent in my "Torture Chamber" unable to do anything but read, read and read about the afterlife and try to connect once again with my son. I had never sought out those things prior to him passing over.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Yes - I believe he still exists.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Uncertain      At the time, yes.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   Yes

With my mother. She hadn't died at the time and she promised me that when she died, she would bring herself and my son in my dreams.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Sadness that he was gone, hope, desire, anxious, wanting more.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?     Yes     They felt happy for my experience.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

I've shared my experience and asked many questions on many websites about why he hasn't come back again and only has come once.

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       He validated that he was gone.  If he did not do that, I may have never believed that he really passed over.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       Yes 

When I was about 10 or 11 years old, my sister was reading a book with a low light on (we shared a room) and I was asleep. She told me then and the story remains the same today, that she saw me turn over in my sleep, get up, walk across the room and turn on the light and look at her with a really weird smile. I then walked back across the room, and as I got into bed, I entered my body (that was still in bed)and as I did so, my body turned back over again.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes