Rene S ADC

Experience description:  

I was still longing deeply for my son, Carson who had died 2 years earlier in an auto accident.  Many strange and unexplainable events had occurred in the 2 years since his passing already.  I have had dreams that came true, visions and had experienced many bizarre events in my life before, so maybe I was just open to this.  I went to bed as usual on a king sized bed with spouse.  At some point, I found myself hovering in mid-air above a glorious river, across from a gushing waterfall.  Above the waterfall, was my son, Carson.  He was surrounded by the most luscious, thick, green Ivy I've ever seen.  Carson was glowing.  I felt so warm and secure.  We began to communicate with each other, but not by mouth.  It was mind-to-mind.  I knew enough to realize that I was no longer in my earthly state but a whole new spiritual state and that I could comprehend what he was saying in this spiritual state, but not in my earthly state.  We talked mind-to-mind for what seemed to be hours.  When it was time to return to my earthly state (body), I began to slowly float away from Carson.  The last thing he said to me via mind only, was "when you awaken, you will not be able to recall anything we've discussed."  I replied---as if I truly understood why, and said, "I understand."  I woke up feeling so happy...so refreshed and filled with new hope about seeing him again one day.  My spouse said that I had moved to the very edge of our big bed during the night and that I had talked in my sleep all night long.  When I asked him what I said, he stated that he couldn't understand one single word.  To this day, I have no idea what Carson said to me or what we talked about, but I know it was extremely important and that someday, I will be able to recall it or it will be revealed to me.  This experience never happened again, although I wish it would.  The only other experiences close to it have been many times in my sleep that I am flying above the treetops and houses looking down at the world...but it's nothing like the experience of going where Carson was.  I cannot get the beauty and vivid colors out of my mind some 13 years later!  I will never forget it!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     The fact that it was so beautiful there, so warm and secure, and that I knew without any doubt I had been there.  I couldn't prove it, but I knew it was real and not imagined and not a dream.  I had never experienced anything like it before and haven't since.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I had been asleep, but during the event, I had this unbelievably keen awareness I have never known before.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No.  I don't even usually recall my dreams and they are always like a bunch of mixed up events or old memories and stuff that makes little sense.  This experience was seamless from start to finish and there was so much intense color and light.  Carson was absolutely glorious and in a white robe.  The boundary was the waterfall and circle of Ivy that seemed to frame him.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I was like my normal self in appearance and I specifically recall looking down at the river below me, seeing my bare feet and realizing that I was hovering in mid-air without fear or a struggle.  I felt this calmness and serenity...and that I belonged there.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Serenity, peace, absolute purpose for being there and the weird thing, was that I wasn't going nuts about seeing Carson again.  Instead, it was like I saw it all differently there---like I had a whole new level of understanding. I knew he was in a very special position and that he had been afforded this special chance to communicate with me.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Soft sounds of nature...birds...the flowing waters...

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Yes     The river (that runs through the promise land.)  *note:  Carson loved the Billy Joel song, "River of Dreams."  When Carson was alive, I didn't like the song and I never bothered to listen to the words until after he died.  I didn't "hear" the words until after the experience I had and when I finally realized what those words were, I felt chills up my spine.  The song talks about the river that is running through the promise land.

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I have yet to have what we discussed revealed to me.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes            The warmth I felt was different than any other kind of warmth I've ever felt.  It was so soft and subtle.  Like an extremely gentle breeze swirling around me.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I knew somehow that the time and my state of being there was completely different than it would be in my earthly state.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I felt and still feel 100% without any doubt, that I was allowed to go there for a real purpose.  The first being that I was allowed to see that my son was well, happy, and that he was in an important role there.  (As if he had some special favor or rank with God.)  I also knew that I was included in something very important regarding the future, although it has not yet been revealed to my earthly, conscious mind.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes     I knew that the waterfall and the Ivy separated us for a reason.  Afterwards, I assumed it was because I was not fully spiritual, which made me unclean to some degree or something.  I didn't question it at all.  I just knew to respect the boundary, period.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     I know that what Carson told me has something to do with the future, but again, I have not been afforded the chance to realize the content yet.  I know someday, when the time is right, I will suddenly see it with great clarity.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     When I began to float away from Carson, I knew it was time for me to return.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain      I have had visions and dreams, premonitions my entire life and continue to do so.  Most of the time, I have trouble making much sense of them until an event has passed and it is in the recollection that all the pieces fit together.  I still experience odd things on a regular basis that seem to be small communications between Carson and myself and also another person that was a patient in the program.  He committed suicide and while I was wide awake, watching TV, the patient came to me and told me he was okay.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I think that it has reaffirmed my want and need to remain "open" to the paranormal and spiritual world around me.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I am constantly looking more forward to my own death so I can join Carson and my other loved ones in that beautiful place.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     I no longer fear death, but look forward to it and even find myself wishing for that day that I will get to go home for good.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Most have responded positively, but I am very careful to share only with those I know who share my beliefs about the afterlife, etc.  I honestly don't think I care what anyone thinks about it, though.  I know it was real and to me, that's all that matters.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Joy, peace, assurance, purpose, confidence, hope, excitement

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was seeing my son in such a beautiful state and the worst was of course, having to return and not knowing what we said to each other.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I feel that God allowed me this special experience to not only comfort me, but to show me what it was like on the other side.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes