I am 28 years old. I lost my mother on march10 of this year to advanced breast cancer. She chose to die at home, so I took a leave from my nursing job and my dad and I cared for her 24 hours a day. I can't even describe how much this loss hurts, we are a very close family.
I got a digital camera for Christmas and I have taken hundreds of pictures. But, since moms death, we have seen things in lots of these pictures. There are often circles of light on or near us in the pictures. We have also seen mists and shapes. I have never been a believer but what else could these be??
because I live over an hour away from the cemetery, I usually take a picture
while I am there. I went to my parents house after and downloaded the pictures
into the laptop. As I was showing the pictures to my dad, we heard an alarm go
off. My dad said that he had never heard it before. We followed the sound to his
bedroom and to our surprise, it was my moms bedside alarm clock ringing! My dad
has his own on his bedside and he forgot that she even had it on her side. I
picked it up and looked at it, the button to turn the alarm on was in the off
position. My dad and I stared at it and each other for quite a while. Then, I
told him that I didn't want to have to take the battery out to turn it off, and
as I said that, it stopped and hasn't made another sound. Afterwards, we also
realized that it was on the right time. In April all the clocks in the house
were set ahead an hour for daylight savings time, except for moms clock, that
dad had forgotten about.
sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them ?
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? ongoing
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? no
Your beliefs currently regarding your fear of death: Slightly fearful
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was probably real
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: confused, nervous, scared, and happy at the same time
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have: Joy
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Describe: I now believe that death doesn't have to be the end
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
Describe: I am searching for meaning. I have read lots of books and talked to a few people about it.
Have you ever made a death compact? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: I am more open to religion and spirituality
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? My relationships are stronger, I appreciate every moment. I am still doing lots of self evaluation
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
all believe mom was communicating with us, all were happy and amazed
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
Describe: one message board
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes