My son found her in the backyard.  Then he came running inside the house yelling "Dad, mom hung herself!"  She was a drinking that night.  I thought this can't be???  I ran out the back door.  The rope broke and she was laying on the ground.  Looking at her neck and the cuts from the rope.  I knew she was gone and I started to scream.  She was all I had , my love for her is beyond words.  All I knew is she was gone [darkness].  Then the most pretty light and she was under the that light.  My grandma was to the right of the light and my dad was to left of the light with his hands in his pockets.  My grandma was holding a handkerchief over her mouth looking down at me.  They were all looking at me, like when you break down at night and some one walks to you with the car lights behind them.  She was o.k. She's ok!!!! But I didn't want her by the light. She was only 32.  I wanted her by me, not by the light.  I am going were they went! She met me when I was homeless; I fell for her like a rock.  She's buried at the cemetery [this is painful for me].

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     the light and am a nobody

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     my wife hung her self [she could not get back to the tree]  I knew it was a accident; she tried to get back to the tree

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I don't know

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I don't know

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain     

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Uncertain     

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            love [pure]

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I explained it above

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     God

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain           

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain     

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     sometimes I can see people after they die;

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    god is good God is great

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    am going where they went??

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    she really loves me and our kids ad she stills does

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     how do you top that as another women wanting to go out with me???

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     God is there for all of us

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        thank you Tanya [she saved from suicide]

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   no more hate