I was extremely distraught and agitated due to my mother's death and the circumstances surrounding it; while ly ing awake after a bad dream, I suddenly felt extreme gentleness and transfer of serenity come to me this was characteristic of my mother's caring character here in this incarnate life.  I was having a difficult time forgiving actions of family members I did not understand; it seemed like I was being urged to let go of the burdens I had imposed on myself.  This reoccurred but with less definition (or intensity) early Wednesday.  Also twice when getting in my car and turning on the radio in the space of a few days I heard the song that says 'don't stop thinking about tomorrow, yesterday is gone, yesterday is gone' (message to me?)

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

Seemed extraordinary since I was very distraught due to my mother death and the circumstances surrounding and preceding it; felt extreme gentleness and transfer of serenity

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Uncertain

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        It was almost instantaneous in how the feeling arose; stayed with me until I fell asleep.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         See above

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Uncertain

Already stated above (i.e. very tender and caring)

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Have difficulty explaining the sudden onset of peacefulness any other way.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Very peaceful and more forgiving

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I think I have already described this as much as possible

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      All good; wonderful emotion or feeling

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            perhaps better reconciliation with events and family

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Uncertain           

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            relaxation, sleepiness

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Uncertain

No knowledge of any other one way or other

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

Have to wait and see.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Some say they have had visits from loved ones who have passed; some no definite response

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            Uncertain

relaxing herbal formulas, melatonin

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Uncertain 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes