i had a very busy day and therefore i decided to go to bed earlier which is very unusual of me. before going to bed, as was my routine ever after the death of my brother, i always looked at one of his favorite photographs that i took with him and then pray. as i tried closing my eyes to sleep, i could hear sounds as though someone was walking in the room but my question was ;how and yet i had closed the door? i tried forcing myself to sleep since the next day was going to be another tiring day for me and somehow i started feeling drowsy.
all i could hear then was his voice calling me and asking me "mummy (home name) are you a sleep?" at first i assumed thinking that maybe i had just been musing how things used to be before he died, but as this sound kept on ringing in my mind i decided to open my eyes and check who this was after recognizing the voice.
oh my god!! words cannot explain what i saw on opening my eyes...the experience still haunts me up to date. my poor brother was in torn clothes that were dirty and immediately i saw him i started crying. the marks on his body that seemed to have started healing comparing them to the way they were when i last saw him at the grave side just before burial made the pain in me even worse. he leant forwards and sat on the bed next to me and started consoling me by saying, "don't cry my sister, this is what the world is comprised of and besides, they thought that they had killed me but i`m still surviving."
after trying all that he could to make me stop crying, which i did, we ventured into a different discussion. he asked me how mum and dad had been fairing on and told me to say hallo to them but he kept on stressing on the fact that he is fine and would like to talk to mum. as we continued talking, i saw as if our housegirl came into the room and told me that dinner was ready, i therefore told him to come with me for dinner but he was a bit reluctant at the start then later agreed.
it was at this point that i saw the sorrow that lied on his face. i tried asking him if at all everything was fine and the only comment he made that hurts me up to this time was, "you are lucky you still have your parents who can buy for you clothes while i walk in tarters". i felt so much pain and asked him if i could give him some of my clothes but again he said that "wherever i live, we don't put on your kind of clothes".
as we were walking to the dining room , he told me to stop and asked me if at all i wanted a present from him, i said yes. he knelt down to pick something from the couch in our living room and held out a gold chain and some bangles then told me "i won't give them to you now but will let you come and pick them tomorrow from this couch". we went to the table for dinner and just then some friends of mine came in and i told him to greet them but unfortunately one of them seems to have greeted him with wet hands. he suddenly became moody and told me that he wanted to leave. i asked him to stay longer but he said "do you see the way that they hate me? how can your friend greet me with wet hands...anyway i understand."
then he asked me to escort him out of the compound. while walking out of the house he said to me "i understand that you are going to study in Australia, please work hard and help mum and dad since you know that now I'm gone and it is only you left behind, i am giving you all my blessing so its up to you to do the right thing." i promised him that everything was going to be fine but i just wasn't sure if i was going to get my visa or not, he told me "don't worry everything is going to work out for you.
it was at that time that he mentioned something that really shocked me, he said "that boy that you are yet to meet in your life is not a good boy and therefore make the right choice for yourself" this statement shocked me because its true that i was getting to know someone in my life and was prepared to start a relationship with the person. well all the same he insisted on going and while walking down the stair case ,i was leading and he was right behind me. a sudden shout came from him telling me "stop!' and i think i was a little bit shocked at that. he came closer and whispered in my ears, "next time when you are walking, be careful ok, couldn't you see that your elder brother was going to stub you with a knife?" he then told me to go back to the house and that he will come back and visit me another time.
the next morning when i woke up i couldn't even imagine what had been happening so i just left the house and went to the embassy and surprisingly the lady i found at the counter just told me,"are you roselyne?" and i said yes then she told me that my visa processing was complete but i had to pick it up two days later. when i got home the housegirl came to me and told me that she had found my chin and bungles on the couch. it was then that i started thinking about the issue. this chain had been given tome by my late brother when he was supposed to be going back to school and i wanted to accompany him but my mother would not let me do so. i went that evening and explained the whole thing to my mum and she just smiles and told me that "he came to visit you because you have been mourning a lot about him and besides that you two were very close and therefore he's been missing you.
i always prayed to god that he could let me talk to him again but this didn't happen until a month later when he came and was so annoyed and all he told me was that i may stop crying or else he would come back and take me with him. i told my mum again about this and she said to me "the dead want to rest in peace so when you keep on crying or mentioning their names, they get annoyed because you are disturbing their peace and so you have to stop thinking about them. she told me just to pray and try to forget him. well it took me time to believe all that happened but finally i made it and i thank God for everything he has done for me and my family because this is the hardest thing i found difficult to cope with.
Did you sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them ?
Describe: i heard foot steps in the room and a voice calling my name.
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally, or outside of you, inside of you, or did you not hear a voice or sound but had a knowing of what was communicated? before opening my eyes i was not sure where the voice was coming from. at some point i thought it was my own imagination.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar to the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? it was very similar.
How clearly did you hear the deceased? very clearly.
Is there any possibility that what you heard was from any other source in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no
Did you see the deceased? Yes
Describe the appearance of the deceased: marks/scars on the face, torn and dirty clothes, sad/moody, thinner than usual. the very evident difference was on the nature of talking. he was so soft spoken on this day but this was not like him during his existence.
How clearly did the deceased appear? somewhat transparent.
How much of the deceased did you see? the whole body
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? appeared to be the age at which he died
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? the scars on his face were due to the nature of his death since he was really stabbed and the teeth removed but ton the occasion, he had teeth. he appeared not to be healthy though.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in your surroundings at the time of your experience? no
How long did the experience last? over two hours.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? it took time because we discussed quite a lot of things.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? absolutely
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? when he talked about the person that i was just getting to know and was prepared to have a relationship with, i became stunned.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was probably real
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: at the start i was really emotional especially looking at the way he was dressed and the expression on his face but when he consoled me and started talking about different things i became so happy that at least we could still communicate though we belonged to different worlds.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Describe: i started believing in life after death
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
Describe: i attempted suicide one time but thank God my mother rescued me when i was just about to die.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
when he told me that my visa processing was going to be fine.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?
whenever i dream of someone who is sick the person is likely to die in the next
few days. i can also easily tell what is likely to happen in certain situations
when people don't expect them to happen.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web