My mom recently divorced Dave and his kids got taken away in foster care. He was heavily into Crack and Heroin and really depressed now more than ever. I would still see him a lot at neighbors house but hadn't seen him in 2 days. An officer came to our house 8/22/2011 and I was baby sitting outside. He asked to speak to my mom. I said to that kids. Uh oh I think Dave is Dead. The officer spoke to my mom on the side of the house. A minute she said Sam, Dave's dead. I was more in shock than anything. I wasn't too close to him alive. They married when I was 22 and it was my moms 4th husband but Id moved in the January before his death to help them pay their bills. My mom called his parents and we talked a lot about the after life because she knows I'm really into the afterlife and always pray to my spirit guides. My mom was convinced that he killed himself because his life was so messed up. She was very sad because she kind of thought eventually he would clean up and they would get back together. His life was such a mess when died. The next morning I went to make a salad and had this overwhelming thought of How could you eat when I'm dead? I put the food down sat on my bed next to my sleeping boyfriend and held both my hands out and said Dave if your here touch my hands.

Immediately I felt a warm tingly heavy presence on both of them. I was convinced he was near so I went to my moms room to tell her I think he's near so if she wanted to say anything to him she should now. Her girlfriend had slept over to keep her company so we moved into the living room. My mom started telling Dave that she missed him deeply and that she wished he was back, that he was the love of her life...and then all of a sudden I was like behind myself and I was very relaxed I kind of let him in I guess. I felt like I was on drugs. A very overwhelming physical feeling. Not bad. Something I never felt before. Very tingly and seriously felt like I had taken a bunch of oxycotine or something. I had no control over my voice. It was Dave speaking though me to my mom. (Keep in mind I am very shy I never yell or make a fool out of myself). He was calling her Cher (Her name is Cheryl-he's the only one who calls her that) He said he was scared and didn't know what to do.

He said I DID NOT KILL MYSELF CHER! HOW COULD YOU THINK THAT! I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA GET BETTER TOO. He (I) started screaming now and crying...CHER YOU HAVE TO FORGIVE ME! FORGIVE ME! FORGIVE me! I was thinking god mom just say you forgive him. She was saying something like I don't know if I can right now... and he just kept repeating himself. I was getting mad. In my own voice I fought really hard and said God damnit mom forgive him! That's all I could get out. Finally she said she would forgive him. She asked if he was okay and he said he didn't know. He didn't know. What he was supposed to do now. I was getting really overwhelmed now the druggy feeling was making me sick and I was scared because I couldn't control my words or move really. I think my mom saw how scared I was so she asked Dave to leave me alone because he was scaring me. I know he wasn't trying to... he was just desperate to speak to my mom and found a way through me. Slowly I was able to lay down. But couldn't stop crying and trembling Now I was kind of embarrassed. I just wanted to feel normal. The druggy warmth stayed with me but wasn't as intense. I didn't say anything to my mom or her friend and went to my room.

My boyfriend asked me if I was okay and I just couldn't talk. I was exhausted and fell asleep. Later in the day whenever I was near my mom I got that overwhelming feeling again and I literally had to fight of letting him in and couldn't stay near my mom. It was making me sick. The whole day was like that. I would tell him to go into the light and except being dead. I was in my car the next morning and it was so intense I had to pull over. I told him I would get help for him but he had to leave me alone for a little while. I told him I would call my friend from church for help because I knew she was in touch with the super natural. I promise I kept saying. But he wouldn't leave I was getting mad now. As soon as I got home I yelled at my mom to tell Dave he had to back off because he was really making me uncomfortable. Her response was that she wanted to talk to him again that I should just let him in. I was mad. I said its my body and up to me if and when I will let that happen. You don't understand how it feels mom You have no idea...I'm going to call Celeste from church. I looked up her number and she said that we could come over her house that night and she would help us. Apparently she is a medium. I didn't know that. Okay Dave? Are you happy now? She is going to help us He let off a little bit. Just so you know Id only been to the church like 7x and hadn't been there since February and Celeste had met my mom once and never met Dave and didn't know a thing about him. I brought a notebook with me and as soon as we were in my car I felt him again.

It was me, my mom, and the same friend (Nikki) from the other day. Celeste sat us down and she was like oh wow. He followed in right behind you guys. She accurately described what he looked like and kept saying Okay Dave I'll help you Dave but you have to relax, your coming on a bit strong. She described how she felt from him...the same druggy feeling. She told me all you have to say is back off...he's not doing it on purpose he was just really anxious and because he died from drugs very recently he still was feeling that way. (NOTE. all I told her was that I thought my step father needed help he just died and was like harassing me but I was too scared to let him talk through me again). She could let him talk to her and she would translate but sometimes like me she spoke in 3rd person like it was him talking and she would have to say back off that she could talk for him. The first things he said were that again he didn't kill himself. He was at the hotel and was shooting the same amount of heroin he always does but he immediately knew something wasn't right...he tried reaching for the phone but then he was out of his body. Then he told us to stop telling him to go to the light Its not beam me up Scotty...its everywhere. He said he got like uploaded with information. That it was pretty crazy over here He was saddened to see that there weren't any angels over here. He said but its amazing. Even the crappiest guitars sound amazing over here (he was a great musician and singer. that was his passion on e earth. Music) We asked about his kids (who were in foster care) and he said Johnny (7 yrs old) saw him last night. He said he was watching him sleep at the end of his bed and Johnny said Dad? Dave was happy but didn't want to scare him so he left him alone.

We asked if he knew what was going to happen to them and he said time is just so different over here. It isn't. They are going to adopted by a different family and eventually be just fine. E saw David (10yrs old) at his graduation. I said is there mom going to get them? No. Melanie is not good enough for them she will never have them (Celeste had no knowledge of the situation and definitely had no idea the kids mom was named Melanie). Dave said this whole thing  was weird like he was deaf  and dumb and needed someone to translate for him. I can see y'all just fine I don't get it. He apologized for scaring me but he just really wanted to talk to my mom. My mom asked why he couldn't just go to her directly why Sam (me). He said something about this light being around me and that he tried to go to her but I was the only one who heard and knew that light meant something. He thanked me and said he will try to be more gentle. He wanted me to write a letter for him to my mom. I didn't understand. He said just sit down with a pad and pen and let that light enter me again and just let my thoughts go. He wanted my mom to have  physical words from him. I agreed. There was a lot more said and not nearly  . I would have asked a lot more questions if I could go back to that day. Nikki's sister actually came through and revealed info to her and also my sisters boyfriend who died 7 years ago and acknowledged her new baby and that his kids were great and told me to thank her. Ever since that day Dave has been a huge part of my life. I wrote the letter for him. It was crazy and just let go and all these words just flowed out. Like 7 pieces of paper and my mom understood all the things that made no sense to me. I thought for a second that I might have made it up but she said I would have no way of knowing their private jokes and experiences.

Dave has helped me through a lot. I can sometimes talk to him. He saved our dog a few months later. Our little black pug has gotten out unknowingly one night. I thought he was with my mom and she thought he was with me. We started freaking out because we live next to a really busy street and there was no way he could not have gotten hit by a car. A 12 pound little black dog in the middle of the night? We were waiting for a call from the dog pound to confirm his death. I couldn't be around for that call so I went to the woods to a tree I had decorated for Dave and often went to talk to him. I started crying and talking to him asking him to take care of Paco the dog because I knew they were together. I heard him say Go tell your mom the dog is fine . I took this as the dog was fine because he was on the other side with Dave. I went to tell my mom that and we started crying when the phone rang. I blocked my ears and then saw her smile. They had him! We were so happy they said to get him in 2 hours because the lady was going to lunch but we went their anyway and stopped the lady from going. We asked where he was? Oh the Berlin Turnpike. The owner of the Berlin Motor Inn found him waiting outside his office at 5am this morning when he went to open up. Oh my god me and my mom both said. That was 5 miles away at the hotel Dave died in. We immediately knew Dave had led Paco to safety he knew the owner would bring him to the pound and also to let us know it was him that saved him by bringing him to that specific hotel. Another sign he was watching over us. He must have had a long night keeping Paco safe. Literally crossing highways. So crazy. There have been many more contacts from Dave. All amazing. He came to my mom in a dream one night he had been with me because I was freaking out thinking my boyfriend was dead because I hadn't heard from him and it was not until 3:30 am I did. I felt that physical Dave presence and thought maybe all dead people felt like that...I confused he's okay again with he's okay because death is okay. Be more specific Dave! Say alive next time. At 7am we conceived a baby (currently pregnant) and made my mom says at 3:30 she dreamed about Dave and in the dream he said he had a long night. and told her that a baby was coming and it was a good thing. Obviously my mom did not know an hour before we conceived. Just another awesome sign from Dave. Keep believing. Have faith! There is no death!

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    See above

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  Heard the voice in my head. In my voice but his way of talking and definitely his words (When he wasn't talking through me)

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           My voice. His style of talking and words I would never use

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO way

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

Warm tingly heavy physical presence surrounding my body. Or sometimes to check he is listening to me I will have him touch a specific hand

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Now it is familiar. It is specific to him. I only feel it when he is communicating or sometimes still when I am near my mom.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Sometimes when I'm freaking out about something he let's me know it will be okay by his presence

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No

Did you see the deceased?         No

I have asked him to physically appear to me. That would just scare me too much. So far so good. Except when he comes to me in my dreams. But before I see him in my dreams I get this like serotonin rush and just feel amazing and I will know when I turn around he will be there and I just hug him and am so happy and not scared at all. He tells me what he is up to over there and sometimes advice for me and my mom

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Only in dream and solid

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Just in dream and all

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Really healthy and had thicker hair and gained some weight (at death was so skinny and hair was thinning)

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            See above

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           Na

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        First experience was like 20 minutes long

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Beginning was way less intense then it peaked and slowly came down

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

At first he was really scared and confused. He'd only been dead a day. And it was a very sudden death.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Told my mom I was pregnant before I knew...told us how he died when we thought it was suicide. told us who would adopt his kids...told me my dog was fine when I thought he was dead and also that my boyfriend was okay when I thought he was dead...Also gave details about what he does in heaven

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I have been spiritual my whole life. Always praying and talking to God and spirit guides even before I knew it. I always felt different and more in touch but never imagined I would have an actual experience. I'm not crazy. I would never say or do the things that happened to me. It was a real physical presence not just voices or anything. I'm not on medication or anything like that. I understand some people might not believe me. In fact I've told some really close friends and they still doubt me. But if it hadn't happened to me I might find it hard to believe. Everyone who was there has no doubt and neither do I. It was literally the most outstanding standout life changing moment of my life.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Just the dreams...not my main experience

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           High, scared, amazed, and curious

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I had my opinions of life after death. Even though I was very spiritual a little part of me thought there was a chance that when you die you are just gone. I would lose sleep over this and worry constantly. I fear everyone I love dying because I know they will as will I but now I know for a fact there is no death. Dave is fine...so I will be and so everyone else will be. I'm still going to miss them though...just like if they moved away I would be really sad.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Worst was the icky druggy sick feeling when he was like trying to force himself into me best was getting the crazy information from him and knowing he still existed.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            Made me want to be a bereavement counselor...still working on that. I'm kind of preachy now. I don't want anyone to fear death.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     confirmed my beliefs and erased doubts about the afterlife

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     See above

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

I have death compacts with pretty much everyone I love. Mom dad sister boyfriend grandma and my 2 best friends. I always tell them to come to me immediately if they can. Try to talk to me and turn on and off the TV because I watch it a lot. And I always tell them not to scare me. My mom is a heavy heroin user (she did not learn from Dave) and I fear she is dead pretty much every day because she passes out on the ground. Will find her in contorted positions with lights on and needles stuck in her...and think oh god and be prepar3d to hear her but so far she is alive. Makes it worse because she really misses Dave and can't wait to see him. Although he has expressed to me that she isn't supposed to OD and warns her all the time how drugs are interfering with her life plan. Me and Dave had discussed death and afterlife a lot and I think he came to me because he knew I was really in touch with death.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes His children being adopted by a different couple. And at his funeral if he saw his dad like Dave told me and he described the same exact thing.


What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Awe, frightened, happy, special, excited, tired, full of questions and answers

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

First time I felt him.. went to my mom to have her talk to him. Her friend was also there.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

Being pregnant...his kids being adopted. Totally accurate

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

Could not hear dead people before this...kind of like really high pitched like sometimes when he needs to make a point I feel like he is trying to scream in my ears I have to really let go to understand. Its like trying to hear someone underwater but on a really high vibrational levels. Kind of like how humans can't hear certain frequencies that animals have

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

Total out of body high when he spoke through me...couldn't control what I was saying or doing

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?       No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Boyfriend and sister believe me because I've had some other experiences they have witnessed. A lot of my atheists friends...doubt me. Don't know if they think I'm crazy or lying. But when I asked one friend who is interested but not a believer what it was you? And then a medium confirmed everything you said and told you things only you knew? He's more jealous I think because his mom died and I guess he's been asking her to contact him. He said if it happened to him it would be different he would believe. Which I totally understand but at least he's trying. I don't think he's letting himself let her in...

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I just really hope you take this seriously. I have been reading tons of ADC and NDE books and just knew I needed to share my story with someone who understands and to reach out to people who are mourning and think their loved ones are gone.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

Had some communications from my brother in law. through dreams and having electrical appliances go off when I talked to him also when I was 16 I thought the world was going to end in 1999 (Nostradamus) and asked God for a sign and I felt a whoosh turned around and saw that the Moon had a perfect cross of light going across it. Also comfort from spirit guides kind of warm feelings

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

If anything I went into 2 much detail 

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Maybe just offer room for more than one experience...because too long a form to fill out for all the stuff I experienced.