It was 3 weeks after my husband died. My sister had been staying with me, but went home the day before my experience. I woke up about 3 am. I was crying and felt terrible. I kept talking to Charlie, and saying that I wanted to be with him so badly. I was hysterical. Finally I calmed down, and tried to get back to sleep. I started to fall asleep at about 4:30 am. Suddenly the TV in our bedroom turned on all by itself, and as I partially sat up and looked at the screen, it said love across the screen in big pink letters. It felt to me like I had just gotten a message from Charlie, that he still existed, and that he still loved me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        a few seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

it felt like something Charlie would do, I felt like he was trying to reassure me

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no, I thought he was just letting me know he still loved me

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:            sometimes I still question if the TV communication was from Charlie, or if something else caused the TV to turn on. Later I saw a TV commercial for a Makeup, that used the same word love, in pink letters, at the start of the commercial. It was just like the word love, in pink letters, like I saw the night of my experience. I am usually skeptical about things that I can't prove. Charlie knows that about me.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

for a while I was feeling good, and then I started wondering if I was wrong, and something else caused the experience

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part is that I believe now that there is at least a possibility that I will see Charlie again. The worst part is that I still have some lingering doubt. I don't know for sure that Charlie caused the TV to turn on. I am a skeptic, I would love to have proof beyond a shadow of a doubt.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 I look for signs from Charlie regularly. I am more focused on the possibility of life after death now. reading about other people's NDEs, and ADCs makes me feel better. I want there to be serious research about this subject, because I now see that an answer to the life after death question, is critical to our existence. I never even cared about life after death at all, until I realized that it was a viable possibility. Now I love the subject, and I want the scientific community to embrace this subject, and take it seriously.

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?         I want to believe that it was a real communication from Charlie because it felt like it was, but I do sometime have lingering doubt  

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I believe there is a strong possibility that there is life after death now

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     It made me believe that life after death really does exist.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No I checked the TV to see if there was anything wrong with it. I checked to see if the TV dish was functioning properly, and none of the other TV's in the house had turned on at that time, Every thing checked out okay, so I have no explanation for why the TV turned on by itself,  with love written across the screen. Charlie and I did not get to say goodbye to each other. We did not get to tell each other how much we love each other. I think Charlie was telling me to hang on, because we will see each other again.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            hopeful that it was real, and more upbeat

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

a kind of realization that consciousness may continue after death

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes    

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    it was a comprehensive survey