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Seamus P's ADC

Experience description:  

When I was three years old my grandfather became quite ill with leukemia and went to NY City into a hospital, where he died.  We were up from our home in Washington to New Jersey for, I assume, this illness, though I was probably not told he was seriously ill, if anything at all. 

My grandparents house was enormous and in those days kids wandered around pretty freely, even someone not yet 4 years old.  It was a bright sunny day and I was walking up the back stairs to the little porch or entryway above the patio and there was my grandfather standing there smiling.  Just a normal, friendly smile, nothing beatific.  I didn't jump into his arms or anything, he was a Victorian man (my father called him "sir" or "father").  But he was not strict, just undemonstrative emotionally. 

He squatted down to my level and, I think, took hold of my shoulders to get my attention, though I am not sure about this, or even that he squatted, but he was quite tall and he must have in order to talk with me. 

What he said was simple and direct; "I am going away for a long time and I will see you again someday."  That's it.  I think he hugged me but I am not sure.  I also think I left to play or explore, he didn't disappear or anything that I am sure would have scared me. 

Now there are a number of explanations.  First, that it was actually him in real life telling me about his impending trip to the hospital.  But he looked healthy and I gather for his trip to the hospital he was ill and it was sudden.  Moreover, he didn't know how sick he was so even if we were visiting, he would not have told me this. 

In any case, if I was there just before he was taken to the hospital, I am sure I would have sensed the gravity of the situation from the atmosphere in the house.  That same year my uncle was burned in a plane crash (he was a test pilot) and I was with my other grandmother and my mother (his sister) when the call came in.  I knew something was horribly wrong before they told me. 

Another explanation is that I dreamed this after the fact. Now, I accept that this is actually possible but if it was a dream (that is, if I had the experience while I was asleep) it still think it was an ADC because he conveyed information to me that I did not know but later was confirmed to be true.  So perhaps he visited me while I was asleep, but he did visit me. 

But I think the final indication that this was real contact was that 58 years later I still remember it quite vividly.  I don't remember my dreams when I woke up this morning but I remember this.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

          Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?         external

          If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?         same

          Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?      no

          Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?          Uncertain

i think shoulders but maybe not

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  holding my shoulders to keep my attention

          Was anything communicated by the touch?  intensity i guess

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?         no

Did you see the deceased?        Yes

absolutely normal

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            normal

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?            same

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy and normal, though the illness was fairly quick

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       a minute or two

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          normal encounter

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes  positive, friendly

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  yes, see narrative above

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?         Experience was probably real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   It was intense and now 58 years later I remember it like it was yesterday.  In fact, I probably have only this solid memory of that age, other than one two other semi-traumas

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:         normal communication between me and granddad

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Its unusual nature only became apparent later.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes He took the long trip he told me about.  This happened before he died, or at least before I was told.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          nothing exceptional

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes  His death

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    Interest

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?  No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes