was a very religious and spiritual person. Before she died in the holly month
of Ramadan, on the last Friday (Jumma-tul-widda) she had already mentioned that
to my father. During her last few days in hospital in Karachi, Pakistan. I was
still in the U.S. I didn't know if her condition was so critical that she will
not live. I took it easy and prayed to GOD that may he give her my life and
that she live long. But she died in November 21, 2003. I couldn't make the
funeral because it took me 24 hours to reach. When I got there the next day of
burial, I was cursing myself and crying all the time that I could not see my
mother before she died and asked for her forgiveness. That guilt was bothering
me so much that I couldn't sleep, eat or drink well. The third night, while I
was still in Pakistan, before I went to sleep, I asked my mother to forgive me
and went to sleep. My mother came into my dream and told me that she forgave
me, she said that three times. The dream was very clear and simple. After
that, I was feeling very satisfied and relaxed. Since then, I saw my mother in
my dreams many times. I was very attached to my mother and the only time that I
went so far from her was when I came to the U.S.A. for studies and even that
because she wanted me to acquire higher education in the U.S.A. My mom's death
changed my entire life and made me more religious and down to earth person.
Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience: I was sleeping when I saw my mother came into my dream. I was wondering if my mother forgave me before she died. But I didn't know how to find out. I was very worried. My mother came into my dream and told me explicitly that she excused me, she repeated that three times. Then I felt satisfied
Have you had multiple experiences? Yes At least three
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Uncertain
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I heard my mom's voice calling my nick name shani, occasionally.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? Both inside and outside. That she was calling my nick name and heard her sobbing.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? It was exactly the same
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No, it has to be her.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No, not at all
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
On my head and shoulder while I was going to sleep and sometimes while I was asleep.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? It's hard to describe
Was anything communicated by the touch? Can't say much about that.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? I don't know
Did you see the deceased? Yes
In my dream. She was wearing the same clothes that she used to wear when she was alive in home.
How clearly did the deceased appear? Very clear
How much of the deceased did you see? All
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? A few years younger and in better health
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Normal health
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? Can't remember
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Both
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Very satisfied and most of the times happy
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes, regarding an unpleasant incident, she came into my dream one night before that and looked worried and gave me hint. I don't feel comfortable describing that incident but it was the worse incident of my life
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: It was real because I experienced it myself
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes
It was a dream but looked reality
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was tensed
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
That she forgave me and that satisfies me emotionally
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was that my mother forgave me and the worst was that I couldn't talk to her while she was dying.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: It has affected my daily life, brought me close to my religion and GOD. Now I try to help people any way that I could
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I am more down to earth person now. I became very humble and kind person.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes That we can communicate with our loved ones by the help of GOD (or Allah)
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I cry more often when I think of my mother and feel more close to her than ever
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
When I dreamed, during those times
Did you meet
or see any other beings other than the deceased?
Yes, my aunts that loved me most and were very close to my mother
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Most of the people tried to compare it with scientific or medical explanation
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No, it was incredible
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
I rather not talk about that but I experienced it in the cemetery where my mother is buried
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes