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Shahid's ADC

Experience description:  

My mother was a very religious and spiritual person.  Before she died in the holly month of Ramadan, on the last Friday (Jumma-tul-widda) she had already mentioned that to my father.  During her last few days in hospital in Karachi, Pakistan.  I was still in the U.S.  I didn't know if her condition was so critical that she will not live.  I took it easy and prayed to GOD that may he give her my life and that she live long.  But she died in November 21, 2003.  I couldn't make the funeral because it took me 24 hours to reach.  When I got there the next day of burial, I was cursing myself and crying all the time that I could not see my mother before she died and asked for her forgiveness.  That guilt was bothering me so much that I couldn't sleep, eat or drink well.  The third night, while I was still in Pakistan, before I went to sleep, I asked my mother to forgive me and went to sleep.  My mother came into my dream and told me that she forgave me, she said that three times.  The dream was very clear and simple.  After that, I was feeling very satisfied and relaxed.  Since then, I saw my mother in my dreams many times.  I was very attached to my mother and the only time that I went so far from her was when I came to the U.S.A. for studies and even that because she wanted me to acquire higher education in the U.S.A.  My mom's death changed my entire life and made me more religious and down to earth person.

Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience: I was sleeping when I saw my mother came into my dream.  I was wondering if my mother forgave me before she died. But I didn't know how to find out.  I was very worried.  My mother came into my dream and told me explicitly that she excused me, she repeated that three times. Then I felt satisfied

Have you had multiple experiences?    Yes    At least three

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Uncertain

          Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:      I heard my mom's voice calling my nick name shani, occasionally.

          Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?         Both inside and outside.  That she was calling my nick name and heard her sobbing.

          If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?         It was exactly the same

          Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?      No, it has to be her.

          Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No, not at all

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?          Yes

On my head and shoulder while I was going to sleep and sometimes while I was asleep.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  It's hard to describe

          Was anything communicated by the touch?  Can't say much about that.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?         I don't know

Did you see the deceased?        Yes

In my dream.  She was wearing the same clothes that she used to wear when she was alive in home.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Very clear

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?            A few years younger and in better health

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Normal health

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       Can't remember

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          Both

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

Very satisfied and most of the times happy

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Yes, regarding an unpleasant incident, she came into my dream one night before that and looked worried and gave me hint.  I don't feel comfortable describing that incident but it was the worse incident of my life

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?         Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   It was real because I experienced it myself

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes

It was a dream but looked reality

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:         I was tensed

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Yes

That she forgave me and that satisfies me emotionally

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    The best part was that my mother forgave me and the worst was that I couldn't talk to her while she was dying.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes                Describe:     It has affected my daily life, brought me close to my religion and GOD.  Now I try to help people any way that I could

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
            Yes    I am more down to earth person now.  I became very humble and kind person.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?          Yes    That we can communicate with our loved ones by the help of GOD (or Allah)

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          I cry more often when I think of my mother and feel more close to her than ever

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

When I dreamed, during those times

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?          Yes

Yes, my aunts that loved me most and were very close to my mother

Have you shared this experience with others?       

Yes    Most of the people tried to compare it with scientific or medical explanation

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   Yes

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?          No, it was incredible

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?  Yes 

I rather not talk about that but I experienced it in the cemetery where my mother is buried

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes