When I went to bed, after the visitation, I sobbed/cried myself to sleep. I was  inconsolable. After my alarm went off, I was laying there "resting just a little longer" Then all of a sudden, Im in this hallway and I'm walking with Gramps. I notice that he's having a very difficult time walking.  As we continue walking, I notice that with every step he takes is easier. I also am noticing that with every step I take, my legs are getting heavier and heavier. At this point in time Gramps lets go of my hand and continues towards the light. Wait, I hollered, you can't leave me. He turned, looked at me and said "you're gonna be just fine Honey but you can come and I gotta go. He turned back away from me and continued walking towards the light. I can see he's walking as fast as he can manage. I notice that he's excited. I also notice the crowd seem to be excited for his imminent arrival. I see his brothers, his folks, his grandparents. When he arrived with them, they were all SOOOOO very happy to see him. I got a wave good-bye and then I woke up. 

I would also like to add that I was upset and crying all night long during the visitation. I cried all night, sobbing until I fell asleep.

After Gramps came to me, I didn't shed one single tear during both the Funeral or the service at the gravesite. My feelings hadn't changed but my outlook had. I KNEW that he came to me both so I could get "one last goodbye" and because he KNEW that I needed it.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?          No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    He was very clear both when he stated "You're gonna be just fine Honey!"

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  I had the sense that he was talking to me.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           It was my Gramps-talking to me.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No, I was alone in my bedroom.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

I held hands with Gramps while we were walking together.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   It was familiar. His hand was the same then as it always had been.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  I felt he was conveying his love for me

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

He was wearing slack, a knit button up shirt with a pocket on the left, a sweater and his house slippers.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            solid until he let go of my hand. he became more transparent with each step he took towards the light where his family was visibly waiting for him.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       He was about 10 years younger than he was at the time of his death. I know this because he was walking without any type of assistive device. His physical appreance was about 10 years younger too, he was thinner

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            He appeared very healthy BUT I wasn't seeing him as he was just before he died, I was seeing him approximately 10 years prior.```

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           old spice

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     yes, I used to stay the night at grandpa and grandma's at least 3 times a week. Every time Gramps showered, he used old spice aftershave.

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   It was comforting.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        no, we don't have any old spice in our house

How long did the experience last?        I would say 30 minutes or so

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         The beginning was sudden and the end was more gradual. I felt this allowed me to have the closure that I needed!

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

He was ELATED! Gramps always talked about going to Heaven. He always talked about how "someday" he was going to get to see Frank and Marle that he had missed them so much.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I know (know, know, know) my Gramps. We were extremely close. I wasn't really asleep so I know it wasn't a dream.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was happy to see him and sad to see him go but happy that his family was waiting for him-to welcome him home.

Yeah, when we got to the funeral home, I leaned over and gave him a last kiss goodbye and said "I love you Gramps, I'll see you later, ok? You can be the one waiting for me" Until then, I'll see you around.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was knowing that he gave me the honor of walking down the hall with him. The worst part of it was watching him walk away and knowing I won't see him anytime soon.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No                  

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  No           

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt ok. I was still sad that we had lost him but I was no longer upset. I'm also happy and grateful that he came to me and that he shared that experience with me.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Yes

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            Yes   we were walking in a hall towards a light

Have you shared this experience with others?        
Yes     I told my Grandma about it and she cried but said that she was happy for me. I told my girlfriend/cousin and she said it was sweet that he decided to let me have that one last goodbye.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    nothing