I already shared above about the dark experience with my Dad, where he died at the age of 39 of a hear attack, and after that happened I never had that reoccurring dream again. (I had had it several time's a week, before his death)

After my Mom died, I became a Christian, she too was a Christian before she died though she wasn't really a practicing one.  Anyhow, after my Mom died I had these very eerie feelings especially when I was in a dark hallway, or went outside alone at night like my Mom was a ghost and it was scarring me. (this very well could of been because of both parents dying within a few short years and the violent way my Mom died, my young age as my Mom died 2 wks before I turned 11).  My sister took guardianship of me. When my sister took over raising me, I had missed so much school before my Mom died that I couldn't even multiply...I was way behind.  Her death was labeled a "suicide", a shot with a 22 rifle in the temple.  And I questioned my self-worth in thinking "how" could my Mom just leave me!  Right away, I began having these extremely vivid dreams where the colors were so vivid, and they always took place up at "The Property".... I had always had fond memories there...my parents were building our dream home until their early untimely deaths.  We kept the property, I kept my horse there after my Mom died it was located on this beautiful high mountain- breath taking! 

In the mornings the clouds were actually beneath you...and to the east, you felt you could literally touch Mt. Hood...too beautiful to describe.  Even after my Mom died my sister would drop me off with a packed lunch and leave me all day, it was so serene!  Even had a natural water spring. When my mom would come to me she was wearing what she was buried in, and what really freaked me out was she had a turban or scarf thing around her head as in to cover the hole from the gun shot.  She would begin talking to me about my future....and I'd make myself wake up I was sooooo scarred!  I had to start sleeping with my sister because these dreams were so reoccurring and were "real"!  Sometime's during the day I would actually think I saw her, I felt like she was following me.   Finally, the dreams started to lessen, I was able to make it from my sisters bed, to the floor, into the hall....and finally to my own bed.  Than, the next summer when I was 12 I took a babysitting job where I was dropped off at 5:00am, the kids mom would go over the day ahead and leave, and I'd lay on their couch and fall back to sleep until about 8:00am when the kids would call my name and wake me up.  So, just like everyday, I arrived went over the day with the kids mom and went to sleep on the couch. 

My Mom arrived, not at the property, but where I lay! Again, wearing the turban/scarf, and the clothes she wore in her coffin.  She was as real as any person...this time I felt total ease not frightened in the least.  The first thing she did was apologize that she scarred me when she came to me at the property, and that's why she backed off.  The second thing she did, was took off the turban/scarf....she pulled her hair back and said, "Look honey, I'm o.k......their is no hole, I'm healed in a perfect body their is nothing to be afraid of".  As she was talking and looking in her eye's, I could leave my body and go up to the corner of the room and look at my body laying there looking at her sitting their next to me on the couch.  We talked for along time, she told me how very much she loved me, how she wanted me to tell my sister "thank you" for raising me, and tell my brother and sister that she loved them. She told me I'd have a good life, and also told me how wonderful Heaven was and how excited she was for us to all be together again.  She told me how happy she was, that she needed to get this message to me.  I'd go on and on if I said everything we spoke about. I even asked her if I could see a picture of Jesus because I wanted to see if he looked like how he is depicted in pictures, she ascended, and came back...wow, I wish I could go into it but don't want to run out of space.  Finally, my Mom said again that she loved me, she said to not be worried of her coming to me in dreams, that those were never dreams but a message she needed to bring me and she said she'd never come to me again....that is, until we were finally together again forever.  Mom, kissed me and said I would know when she was gone....she said, "When I leave the kids will call your name", she ascended and right than I heard the kids yell, "Shar, Shar"!  I sat straight up was wide awake like I had never been asleep! My body was tingling from head to toe....I ran for the phone, I was overcome with joy and wanted to tell anyone and everyone who would listen. 

My Mom was right, to this day I've never had a dream about her and I'm now almost 48 yrs old!  Within a few short months I went from a straight F student, to honor roll!  Never did drugs, never even tried a cigarette to this day!  From the time I was 6 until almost 11 yrs. old I experienced severe trauma at the hands of my step dad (my mom remarried within 6 mos. of my dads death, to a very abusive alcoholic).  Really, the odds were stacked against me.  I believe that the Lord allowed my Mom to give me that message, I even found in the Bible where God had allowed a deceased person to come back and communicate a message to a living person.  I remember this awesome divine time with my Mom like it was yesterday, and will until we reunite again.  To this day I have never experienced anything like this again.  It was AMAZING~!!!!!!

You are welcome to share my experience with anyone, and may reach me with any questions.

God Bless,

Shar

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  Outside of me.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           The same, she was right there!

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO, ABSOLUTELY NOT!

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   NO

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

She held my hand and kissed me.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Just what I said above, in holding my hand and kissed me.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  NO

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

She looked the best she'd ever looked, and was wearing what she wore when she was buried.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Just like a real person.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Her whole body.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       My Mom just glistened happiness, more than I had ever seen her before.  She also looked very healthy.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Better than I'd ever seen her when she was alive.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO, Absolutely NOT!

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           I don't recall smelling anything

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     NO

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   NO

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        NO

How long did the experience last?        Approx. 45min, to an hour is what it felt like.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         The same

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Very happy!

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Just in letting me know I'd have a good life.... I've had really unusual "good" things happen to me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Simply put, it WAS REAL!

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Relaxed, not fearful at all. Total ease.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

No longer felt like my Mom abandoned me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst was in the beginning, I felt like when she was first coming to me that almost like being haunted. The best was of course the last time she came to me, I felted total calm and ease.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      In everyway, I live my life knowing I will be held accountable for my doings, and looking forward to Heaven.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     That there is no, "IF" there's a GOD or Afterlife......THERE IS

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     I have no doubt their is a Heaven, and I live my life for Jesus Christ.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes her referring to her earlier visits and her knowledge of me be afraid.  Also, she told me my life would be good.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Excited!!!!!   Couldn't wait to share with brother, sister, and loved one's or anyone who was interested.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

But message were given for me to pass on.  As soon as she kissed me and told me how I would open my eye's....I was off that couch and calling everyone!

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

Just what my Mom had predicted for my future.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

People tell me I have a spiritual intuitiveness?

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I don't know if that's what you would call it, but when I could float up into the corner and watch us talking, as if my Mom was showing me, "this is real"!  It was a weird sensation, I felt angelic.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No

Did you see a light?           No

But my Mom described a "light" when I see God/and Jesus....she described them as a bright light.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, I believe everyone had NOT doubted what I've shared, and that it has influenced their beliefs of life after death.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

With others, and believe I tried to send it to a website but it was "full".

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       Just Amazing

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes  just what I shared, which was both spiritual and out of body.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes