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Stephanie H's ADC

Experience description:

When Herk (my husband) and I first became involved we found a music box at an estate sale that played the melody "How are things in Glocca Morra?". Now we didn't know the words so we made up our own to go with whatever we were doing or feeling together. That was back in 1984 before the internet so we couldn't look them up and didn't really want to. It was "our song" and we could sing our own words to each other just fine. It was a fun silliness.

Over the next 20 years the music box would come out every so often and it always brought closeness as we reminisced over our lives together. We continued making up the words.

This box was a great source of comfort to both of us while Herk was in the hospital (following brain tumor diagnosis) and I played it the night before he died when he was having labored breathing.

We had both talked of a "secret password" as a sign from the afterlife if one of us should ever die. Glocca Morra was to be the connection between life and death.

The other day I felt particularly sad about things. On the way to an appointment, I stopped at the store and when I came out this van was parked next to my car. The words "Glocca Morra" were hand painted on it along with some other artwork on both sides of the van.

This was a very poignant moment for me. I have never seen it before. What are the chances of this van, being parked next to my car, at the same time I was there? I rarely shop at this store in the mornings. It is not in the town I live in.

Do you think this is a sign or just a coincidence? While I did have an eerie sense of comfort, I found I wanted more than just a sign, I wanted to actually know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is trying to reach me. I wanted a communication.

Please let me know what you think. Glocca Morra are not words you see everyday. It has been almost 17 months since my man went away too soon.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No - I think he may be trying to communicate, but we have not been successful

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          I walked out of the store and the van with our "secret password" hand painted on it was parked next to my car in broad daylight. I rarely shop here in the morning and have never seen it before,

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was stunned initially, then confused. Wanted to share it with someone because I wanted confirmation that it was in fact, a sign. I was reluctant to leave the area.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain

I miss him and am confused if he was trying to send a message. What was the purpose of the sighting. What is he trying to say??

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Confusion and wanting more. Wondering if there is an actual message he was trying to send.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            I am wondering if I will get to communicate with my husband in a more intense way. Is he trying to figure out a way? Is he breaking any "afterlife" rules to get to me. He was a stubborn and persistant man who like to have his way. If anyone could figure out a way to reach me from the beyond, he could.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  No           

Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   Yes

We had decided many years ago that if there was any way to communicate or contact each other in the afterlife, it would be through the word or song "Glocca Morra".

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes I took a photo of the van with the message.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I wanted more. I wanted confirmation from my husband that it was in fact him. I wanted communication. Even if only one time.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes, I had a friend come out and look at the van

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes  I was reluctant to leave the area. I was not sure if more was coming or if that was the only message.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Wary looks, I am not very comfortable discussing this with just anyone. To begin with, no one knew about our "Glocca Morra" word except our children.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   Yes

Yes, I shared this on the Young Widow Bulletin Board at youngwidow.org.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

We were auctioneers and liquidated many estates. On more than one occasion, but never regularly, I would sometimes "feel" something in the houses we worked in where the person had died there. It was unpredictable. If I tried to feel it, there would be nothing. It would just come to me on it's own. hat is why I was so disappointed when I didn't feel my husband die or have any sense of afterlife. He knew I would be fine with it and not freak out.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    I have a picture of the van. I would like to submit it.