Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes, it was unbelievable
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I clearly heard him telling me to be quick and find my brother. I was so shocked to say anything.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? I can't remember very well but I think it was both. I both hear his voice out and in my mind.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? similar, it was him, his voice
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
shoulder, shook strongly to wake me up
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? as anybody shaking me to wake up
Was anything communicated by the touch? no, I just waked up
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you see the deceased? Yes
he was just as he was alive, with his pants and shirt he wears at home
How clearly did the deceased appear? very clear
How much of the deceased did you see? he was standing by my bed. first I waked up and look up at him from the bed I was lying, than I sit on the bed and wiped my eyes with my hands and looked again, I realized I was not dreaming, totally awake and get afraid thinking his ghost is standing by me
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? same age he died
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? very healthy, nothing different
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? his natural scent, his scent which he has on all his cloths, pillows etc...the scent which I smell every time I hug him, sit near him etc..
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? yes, it was his natural scent. the scent of my father.
Was anything communicated by the smell? I believed it was him.
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
How long did the experience last? 3-4 minutes
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? I was shaken but hardly wake up. He went on shaking my shoulder until I wake up. At first I couldn't believe my eyes and ears but than I sit on the bed slowly and wiped my eyes with my hands and looked at him again. He was still standing in my room when I run to mom's room to wake her leaving him behind.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
He was in a hurry and worried.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? He told me; "Bu quick, find your brother!". He told it a few times over and over until I totally wake up and run out of the room.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: My brother had a terrible car accident at the same minutes my father woke me up. I had several dreams which my dead ones give me messages after that and once (15 years after this experience and 8 years before now) I saw my dead ex-fiance in the middle of a shiny summer day on the street for nearly more than 20 minutes.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: shocked, surprised, couldn't believe, afraid
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
I believe my dreams a little more and more relaxed when I saw dead ones in my dreams
What was the best and worst part of your experience? best part was seeing my father, worst part was getting afraid and running to my mom's room instead of staying near him and trying to speak, communicate more with him. he didn't come much even to my dreams again. I lost that opportunity because of my ignorance and fear.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain
My dreams were coming true all my life but this was the first experience I had which I was sure I was full awake. Maybe it caused me to pay a little more attention to my dreams. But still I was an atheist for more long years.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
this experience and the other ones I had after that made me search about dreams, life, energy etc in time (a long period later) and changed my opinions. At least I am not an atheist any more.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
my brother had the car accident at the same minutes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? shocked, surprised, couldn't believe, afraid, desperate until my brother turn back home
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
but in some other experiences I had
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
I was having that awareness before the experience too but I was not paying attention. I have that awareness all my life.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
I have those gifts all my life. I am not sure if they get more fallowing the experience. But during a period (15 years after the experience) when I was making meditation they became more and more that I had to give up meditation.
Have you shared this experience with others?
They believed. Most of the females at my mothers side has the similar gifts and dreams, so it not so unusual for them. They tried to make me believe God etc more but couldn't have any influence on me. I made my decisions, change my mind in time myself.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
Nearly a year ago my disaster and war dreams became repeating so much and I decided to search about dreams. During my search I saw many web pages and I may have share it with some of them.
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? Will, it was unbelievable but unique.
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Uncertain
While I was 10 years old I had a hearth operation which they stopped my hearth and connected me to a machine during the operation for 6-7 hours. I am not sure if it can be counted as a near death experience. I don't remember any out of body experience, I am having a dream journal for only 10 months now. But I had many spiritual events. Some says I have a third eye.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain
I wish I had been writing down my dreams and experiences than. There maybe more details which I can't remember.