The night of the accident family were with me waiting to hear what hospital he was being taken too, it took quite a while, at exactly 10:25pm he said in my ear very clear, " I am okay mom, and your going to get through this".  At that point I knew he had crossed over.  We had no idea what injuries he had or what the seriousness of the accident was.   

The 2nd time was after I finished meditating, I heard very loud music playing and thinking how odd that the neighbors had their music so loud on a Sunday morning.. I then recognized it was one of my son's songs (he was a musician) and I listened to it all and actually sang the chorus line out loud. (that's all I knew of this new song).... He hadn't finished writing the whole song before his passing.  When it stopped I got up and noticed the windows were closed, and I looked down and saw my sister sitting on the patio and thought how odd, as she could not yet listen to his music because it hurt her so much. But she had a friend stop over and I just thought how nice that she let her friend listen to his music.  I went down to the patio and said "you were listening to Mark's music", and they looked at me like I grew 2 heads.. she said "Sue, you know I cannot listen to his music"..  I was stunned, so went inside and sat down and a knowing came over me that he sang this song to me for not only myself, but for my sister.  I looked up the lyrics, and was gob smacked... 

I lost my son in October, and 4 months later in our basement, ( I came to stay with my sister and her life partner right after my son passed) my sister's partner hung herself in our basement, on valentines day....another devastation.

well, the lyrics in the song were about "Valentine Sorrow".. I knew this was a message from him, and too think he wrote this song just before he was killed. Co-incidence?  I do not think so.  I had such a strong knowing. 

3rd was one evening my daughter and I went for a evening ride. I threw my very expensive sunglasses while sitting on top of my horse on the back of my truck and they landed on the very edge of the trunk.  I said to my daughter do not forget to remind me to get my glasses when I return because I cannot afford to buy a new pair.  I forgot.  She forgot.  I had a 25 km drive back to my sitter's house that night, and when I pulled up, I remembered my glasses.. I knew there was absolutely no way possible they could be on the back.  NONE.  IMPOSSIBLE.

the next morning I got up, got dressed left for work and got to my car, and the neighbor was outside letting her dog pee. I looked and on top of my car driver side were my sunglasses.  I was frozen. I ran into the condo, my sister came back out to see, and  My neighbor, said to me "Sue, I found your sunglasses on the edge of your trunk and knew you must of set them their and forgot this morning. 

I then said the exact words to my sister "that is impossible", and the moment I said the word "impossible", a feather dropped out of the sky (no birds, no trees, around), in the exact same spot the glasses were laying... we stood there with mouths agape... (he always sends me feathers, still does..). 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes           

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     I heard VERY clearly when he said to me " I am ok, and you are going to get through this mom". 

I actually told my family member right at that point, I know he is gone, he just told me. 

I had a very strong knowing when he said those words, he was trying to tell me with those words that he was gone.  

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?   the voice sounded externally to me and I had the knowing that those words said meant that he had died. 

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     yes     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   none what so ever.      

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No       

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   I was touched a few times by my son after his passing.  he was kneeling down in front of me, and put both his hands on my cheeks.  I felt him.    

Was anything communicated by the touch?   he was consoling me. 

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   no

Did you see the deceased?   No                      

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   No    

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   yes,  I did not know if he was hurt bad when he told me, until that moment

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real   

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No    it was real, all of my experiences..

        the 2nd and 3rd experience the euphoria wore off and grief set back in after a day.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    to have communication with my son.  Knowing my son is no longer with me on this earth.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Uncertain    I cannot determine whether the loss or experiences after the loss has affected all of the above but my life has changed in every way.            

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    it helped me to start back in my spiritual journey.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   Uncertain I just felt that my son had some inner knowing that my sister in law was going to commit suicide on valentines day. 

this song that was played to me that morning verified that for me. I later learned the song was called Valentine Sorrow.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    Yes    1st there were family members sitting with me and I told them what was said to me in my ear.

2nd ... no one was with me

3rd..  my sister witnessed what happened

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain    although, my grief was tremendous, I felt so wide open and very very very sensitive to all and everything around me.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No            

Did you see a light?    Yes    Sitting outside on the step 2 weeks after my son's death a brilliant white light shone up at the top of a very huge tree .. right in the centre is how I can only explain it..  there was NO light source anywhere.