Susan V's ADC |
Experience description:
I was sleeping. I found myself sitting up and having an out-of-body experience, but I was only out half way, from my hips upward. Before, in spirit, was my grandmother, who had died two years earlier. She immediately thought/spoke, because it was telepathic, just everyone describes, "I'm so happy to be able to see you again!" is what she communicated. I not only understood her words, I also felt her joy inside me, as if it was my own emotions, but not quite. With this communication you feel the other beings feelings just as you do your own, but you realize it is the other being. We proceeded to talk for some time, and I cannot remember a single thing we talked about other than it was all very mundane and not what a conscious person would expect to be discussing with a spirit. It was all about me and my life and it was a lot like talking to her when she was alive, but without all the negative baggage, the limitations of the human personality.I suddenly found myself conscious in my body, but not awake. I don't remember going back into my body, I was just there. It is the second time I have experienced that state, where I was asleep but nonetheless, conscious. I was lying on my side, and I could feel gentle stroking on my cheek and my shoulder on the side that was not against the bed. My conscious mind did not remember the out-of-body experience I had just left, and I tried to make sense of what I was feeling. I also felt inside me the most beautiful mother-love I've ever felt, and it was clearly a womanly, motherly love. I struggled to make sense of it all, and I was telling myself, "I'm dreaming; I'm asleep and I'm dreaming." Then suddenly I remembered that it was my grandmother! I was terrified. I was absolutely terrified to think that I was with a spirit. Clearly what was most comfortable for me out of body was absolutely terrifying in my conscious, waking state.
As soon as I felt any fear, she was gone. It was more instant than instant, how quickly the veil closed the very second I had any negative feelings about the experience. I turned on the light and sat up for about twenty minutes, saying several times, "I don't want to see any ghosts; I don't want to see any ghosts." This all took place around 3:30 a.m. Finally I was able to go back to sleep, and in the morning I had no memory of the experience until I was driving to work. I got up and fixed breakfast and did my normal morning without a single memory of this experience entering my mind. But as I drove to work on the highway, I suddenly remembered. I thought for a moment I was going to lose control of my car, it jolted me so much to remember, and I spoke out loud and said, "Oh, my God, I saw my dead grandmother last night."
I had a profound emotional healing subsequent to this experience. I'd had an exceptionally painful childhood, and my grandmother had played a large part in that. On her deathbed she had apologized to me, but I still carried a very heavy burden of depression and suffering from the life I'd had and the apology was appreciated but did not ease my hardship. However, after this experience I felt a complete emotional healing in connection with my grandmother, and I carry no more pain whatsoever from that relationship. I have always felt that the healing has been on a Biblical level in the sense that for me, it is as powerful as if I could not walk, but now I can. And it came immediately after this out-of-body experience. I remember that we had strife, but nothing happens in me now in connection with those memories other than peace. I feel a great peace in connection with her.