I saw a series of very realistic dreams, more like visions about her.

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She was at home by kitchen table as she usually was when she was alive and I arrive and she is talking and I interrupt and said "I am terribly sorry, but I thought you died and we shared all your inheritance" and then she just smiles. Then I asked "you are dead after all?" and then I regret that I made such a stupid question.

Next time I asked how she was. She said: "Don't you worry about me, everything is fine, worry about your inferiority complex. Buy yourself four boxes of chocolate if that makes you better".

Then we had her funeral at sea. When at sleep, I see the sea and nothing else, but I hear her voice: "I loved my funeral" and then she laughed happily.

Then once I find a cell phone with only one number and I call it. Petra's friend, who is also dead, answers. I hear Petra's voice in the background and ask her to give it to Petra. "So, you have found your friend, Minni, you dead people are getting to know each other" and then I think, if these people are dead and I am talking with them, does it mean that I am dead also. "Look, Petra, I miss you very much, but I can't join you, yet". I see both of them sitting on steps in a garden. She said she misses me, too. Once I saw her on her kneels plugging and unplugging cords in an audio system. I was thinking, oh, you have a sound system where you are now.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No

Did you see the deceased?         No

How long did the experience last?        These visions only lasted like one minute each.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Well, actually her friend Minni, that I never met, did, because she answered the phone in Finnish and at the time I thought it was strange, when Petra said that she met her in Berlin. Then I found out that Minni had been in Finland all the time.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Well, I have 44 years of experience about having all kinds of dreams. These were different. They changed my perception. She thought that she was going to the purgatory and she described in detail what it was like, so if I dreamt, I would've dreamt her there. Her straightforward way of talking and acting was reminiscent of her, not me. I had never thought about having a minority complex and there she brings it up. Always willing to help, how she was when she was alive. Only her negativity was gone and drinking problem.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No       

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was confused at first, then I just did not want her to go away.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I am not totally consumed of worry about her.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      There is no bad part in it. Now I know she is happy and everything is fine.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Now I am sure about life after death and her wellbeing.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     Now I am totally certain about life after death and I wish that I can reunite with her.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?            Uncertain

She said that she would come haunting. She said that there was so much agony in her disease that it would be recorded in the walls and in the building. She said that I would not be advised to live in the apartment where she died. After two weeks I moved away. There was no sign of that agony in the buildings or her appearances after death. She was very interested in the paranormal, so that is a death compact in itself. I expected her to appear.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     Yes Only what I said prior, Minni spoke Finnish although I had a prior idea of her being in Germany.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I really wanted to join her, but it was not my time.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  Uncertain

I have had a street light going off at the Karjaa railway station a few times consecutively.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes

Minni, as said above.

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Some people had elated reactions. Some were supportive, like "I know what you are talking about", some were like puzzled.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

The Finnish Paranormal Research Society.

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       Not really, no. I have written them all in facebook updates, so there might be more that I do not remember right in this sitting, but I have dates and all.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       Yes 

I had severe tuberculosis, I lied in bed, motionless and I experienced great care and warmth, love pouring from one specific direction and there was a person, who took my hand and started to walk me out. And I could walk, even though I was totally lethargic. So there we walked, but then I realized what it was and I took my hand from this person's hand and I said "no!" and this person asked "no?" and I said "no, I'm not finished yet!" again and then I woke up, nurses and doctors around me in the emergency room.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes

I might have a little problem with my English when explaining these things.