When Mark fell down and already lied on the floor I was really shocked and his friend put me in the car because they didn't want me to appear in the press. I tried to call my mother and friends for help. Then there was an incoming call with no number shown. I tried pressing every button but I couldn't get the phone call. When the phone showed the missed call it was "18$$$$$$????". Five hours later I went to stay at the friend's house and was lying down on the bed. I kept calling him. When he was alive he always tucked me in every night so I called him to be with me. Suddenly I felt the warmth of energy going through my whole body and I said "thank you Mark for being with me" and it was only the left hand that was warmed then it was all gone.
Seven days after he died I dreamt but it was very lucid. I dreamt that he called and asked where I was and how I was. I told him I was at the friend's house and I was not doing well. He asked "when are you coming home?" I said "I can't go home because you are dead". He told me "I'm not dead I just don't have the body." I woke up suddenly trying to remember whether he was really dead. Five minutes later I went back to sleep he called again and said to me on the sixth floor of our apartment which was the placed we ate and exercised together. At night I asked him for a sign whether he was still around and the light bulb exploded.
day when I went to school I, for the first time, tried to log in to his email. I
put the correct password but couldn't log in a few times. And when I finally
logged in but didn't read any messages the computer clashed a few times even
though I changed to another machine. Three friends were there and saw it happen
too. I moved to a new place and during the time after he died I sensed his
presence most of the time. One night I was praying and both my hands turned
warm, like the first night he died. They were warm and turned red as if someone
was holding them. I felt really happy.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
At my friend's house the night he died. I felt as if he was hugging me like he always did every night when he was alive.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar as he would tuck me in and hug me every night for 3 years. It was warm as if he wanted to comfort and be by my side.
Was anything communicated by the touch? The body and the hand.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No. I didn't believe in life after death before. I even made fun of it but from my own experience I can say for sure they were true.
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? His personal smell.
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? Very.
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
How long did the experience last? a few seconds.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Sudden
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I cannot find any other explanations for what happened. The experience was personal and really relating to our subtle relationship that others couldn't understand. It was personal enough to make me sure of this as a mean he'd use to communicate with me.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Very grieving. I kept calling him all the time.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
It shows that death is not the end and there is a chance that we will see each other again. And he's caring for me like always that he tries to make a contact.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was that we are apart physically but we are still together even he's not in sight. And we are apart temporarily but can have the eternal life together again. The worst was that I can not reach the stage where I can actually see and talk to him as if he was still alive.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: I now believe that we were born to learn to be better. Things just don't happen but they happen for a reason. Some things are beyond my abilities to understand but it changed me to be a better person. I used to think death was the end. But since death is not the end we have to be at our best to live. We have to live the best life.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I now believe in life after death and purpose of living.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
It made me believe even more that we are born with a purpose. God is watching whether we lead our lives in accordance with the universal rule of love. Life and love are eternal because death is not the end. It only helps us reach another stage of intellectual.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Comfort that he still cares for me.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes
My friend was there when I asked for the sign and the light bulb explored.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, Some believe and some don't. Some got scared.