the second incident was the evening my mom died, it too was a shock, this sudden stroke. my mom and i used to watch tv in the evening at times when my husband was gone to bed early for work. i would lay on her bed next to her so she could reach my leg to message it. we never knew why my leg would get such bad knots, now i know , probably was my diabetes diagnosed later on. that was our ritual at any rate, and oh how i appreciated it. well, as you have probably guessed already, that night of my dear mothers death, i was again lying on my stomach and i felt my mother message my  leg. the right leg. the same leg. the difference was it felt so cold. again, i tried like hell to wake my husband and couldn't which was disturbing me. when i couldn't i finally turned around this time , but didn't see anything, but i knew. the next night the exact same thing happened and i looked quicker this time but still could not see anything, but definitely felt my mothers hand message my leg.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

Yes

my mother rubbed my leg the way she would when she was getting the knots out of my calf.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  

very familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch? 

i knew she was there

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? 

no

How long did the experience last?       

maybe five minutes or two, i don't know , time seemed different

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

more sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes

my fathers way of saying Suzy, was clearly loving as usual , i am told that as far as my experience with my mother, that it was not good that her hand felt cold. if this is true, it is because she could have been angry with me, for not having brought her home soon enough, but she was always a loving person.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

yes, a confirmation of after death experiences and that there is something there after death. in fact i  had asked her once, that when the day came , would she give me a sign and she said she would

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

i have this belief because i was wide awake both times and i know it happened.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

as for my exp. with my father, the first exp. it scared me. but with my second exp. with my mother, i was not fearful. just a tad.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

the best part was that they actually came to me. they loved me enough to come to me, i think to maybe say goodbye

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

yes, lost all fear of death, not that it was a strong fear for me, but lost it all.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?           

Yes, vindicated

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?       

Yes   only my mom was, we had made that pact between us.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

i felt reassured that most of my beliefs were true, and that there is something more going on after death, than oblivion.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  

Yes, time seemed  slower

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   

Yes, not sure that this happens every day to every one??

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes

most people i know seem to mask what they are thinking when i have told them. some are interested, and some just seem to dismiss the idea.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      

just that i wish it would happen again

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          

Yes 

i believe an angel crossed my path, to warn me of a major event about to take place in my life some time ago.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Yes, i believe the questions covered all that you could cover.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.   

just believe and keep the faith.