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My mum and dad had just been hit by a car , it was horrific and my mum died the same day but dad survived and was in hospital. A few nights of it happening i remember having a bath before I went to bed and crying and asking out loud 'mum, were are you? I don't understand we're you have gone' I guess in hindsight I was suffering from shock as we were a normal family and this just happened out of the blue so I didn't really know what the hell was going on. Anyway I went to bed and fell asleep.  

Next thing I knew I was with my dad, he was ok and walking next to me on my left hand side. We were in a massive brilliant white space but it didn't hurt my eyes and it had no walls or ...anything! it had no ending just seemed to stretch on forever. but it felt solid to walk in just like normal. There was a white small round table in front and to the right of me. It looked like garden furniture type table and there were two chairs on our side and one on the other side, again all white and like plastic garden furniture. I saw some color off to my left and quiet far away I saw my sister stood with her boyfriend, both had their backs to us and they were looking at something on a shelf, they were mesmerized! But I couldn't see their faces or what they were looking at I just knew what it was. Also although they were so far away from me I could see them with such clarity like they were right up close to me. I knew that they were over there because they were not 'ready'.

My sister has mild autism and her boyfriend is a bit of an idiot so I just knew they were not to experience this. As I looked back I saw my mum!!!!! She looked beautiful, I have tears in my eyes even now as I right this. She looked healthy and slim and a bit younger and her hair was shiny and she just looked like she was in control and happy. ( my dad was an ex paratrooper in the army and had suffered multiple strokes from the age of 50 and mum had relentlessly loved and cared for him until it took a big toll on her looks and health)  I was not shocked in fact I felt nothing. I knew all emotions had been banned as we would not have been able to talk properly if the tears started. I just was in wonder! Mum smiled a beautiful smile and sat down so we sat down. I also noticed she had on a light brown wooly cardigan that I had not seen her in for years. I wanted to hug her but knew I wasn't allowed. I just knew we had our own sides to sit on. We talked for such a long time, dad asked loads of questions but strangely I cannot remember any of his questions or answers he got. I asked so many as well, this is what I remember: q. what are you doing now? Mum laughed a bit like she knew how weird it sounded and said 'I'm working'. I asked 'can you see us'? She said 'yes, all you have to do is call my name and I will hear you and come but please stop crying as it makes it harder for me to leave'. She also said time is different over there so she had been there for our equivalent of hundreds of years so had been fine for ages now. And she said about not being alone when it first happens but the exact words are a bit vague. No words were ever spoken, it was like telepathy. Please bear in mind I am a very level headed person so putting this down into text for the first time is hard as I sound like a nutter but feel 100% confident that this was not a dream and I remember it with such clarity. The reason for my confidence is this: a lot more personal stuff was said but I then 'saw' what looked like a dark pair of shoes and I just 'knew' they were bad news and somehow connected with what happened to my mum. Mum put the images into my head it was like speaking but with images. Anyway I woke up at 07:30 am cried my eyes out then made my way to the family home. My sister answered the door and the first thing I noticed was what she was wearing. Our mums brown cardigan I couldn't believe it! I asked her were she got it from and she seemed confused and said she found it so thought she would put it on. It had been packed away for YEARS. I know I had something to do now so started looking. Then as I found myself in my sisters wardrobe I found a plastic bag at the back (I never went through her wardrobe ever but just knew it was here) I opened the bag and inside was a pair of black shoes. I called my sister upstairs and asked her what they were and she put her head down and told me ' mum was wearing them when she died, the hospital gave them to me but I dint know what to do with them so I hid them'. We hugged and after a few minutes got rid of the shoes just like mum wanted.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes          

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
   I heard mum but it was in my head like I heard it from inside. Words came easier, no stuttering, no umm's or aaaahhh's just flowing smooth words

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
    It was mums voice     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
   No way. I was in bed with my then future husband we were alone in the house.

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
   No I heard everything with perfect clarity

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No  

Describe where and how you were touched:
 I knew I wasn't allowed.            

Did you see the deceased?
   Yes    So much better, and younger and healthier with a glow. Strangely I knew she was my mum but I remember a feeling like she wasn't so much my mum any more, more like a best mate feeling. That bit I don't understand.

How clearly did the deceased appear?   Solid like normal person

How much of the deceased did you see?    I saw all of mum

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   She appeared younger

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    Super healthy!!

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    No.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     Happy, gentle, kind, caring, neutering, in control.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   Yes, I would have never known about the shoes as my sister would of kept that secret

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:    I know it was real. I never expected it, it blew me away and made me 'believe' in another place,  whatever that is and I guess what we interpret as God and heaven. It does exist but you have to see it to believe how pure it is and that it exists!!!

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?   
    It helped me accept her death.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   
Best: all of it. Worst: I now want to know more and go there again!!

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    Yes    I started to believe in god more.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    I believe in the afterlife whatever that is. I believe in god I believe in souls

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   Yes The shoes.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       Yes    No time exists. Like it stood still but my experience with time allowed me to gauge it in hours. But I know there was no gauge of time there.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?       

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    Yes   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    Yes    All around me brilliant white but did not hurt my eyes but it was pure white. Pretty amazing actually

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   Yes   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    Only very few who tell me of their experience or if somebody has had a loss and are badly bereaved.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No   

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes    I could speak free of will to people in my dreams and ask them what it's like to be in people's dreams. And I think I remember bringing my sister into my dream once

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Yes