I was relaxed on my bed and I had wished for a number of years that I could have contact with her with no success--then I immediately saw her sitting on my bed and she appeared possibly about as she did when she was about 65, sort of as I remember her, and I was so extremely surprised to see her so vividly.  I am disabled including with a non-functional left arm, but was able to hug her with both arms and literally feel her by both arms around her neck and back.  I told her I love you and she softly smiled her usual way and disappeared.  But I felt her tell me yes before she left.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:  

I believe it was the word 'yes, or I know--it was more a feeling that I heard that rather than something out loud

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? 

sense of knowing, the word wasn't clear but the meaning was very real to me

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?          

no actual verbalization but the thought was hers as if I heard the voice I used to hear.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          

No, no tv or radio or computer were on and no one else in the flat.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?  

None at all

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

Yes

I felt her neck and shoulders and upper back when I hugged her

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  

not that familiar, just obvious

            Was anything communicated by the touch? 

very very much love

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? 

none

Did you see the deceased?        

Yes

mentioned previously, she looked just like she used to look at about age 60 - 65 with the haircut short but somewhat puffy and with freckles on her face

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            very vivid--not at all transparent, she looked like a person living with her body

            How much of the deceased did you see?       waist to top of head

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       60-65 rather than 98

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            smiling and slightly plump--I saw no infirmities

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           none

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

Uncertain

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?          

I'm not sure, but I think it was the smell I used to experience with her but I don't know whether it is normal body smell or perfume or a combination

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?    

Yes, but it was just what I used to smell with her

            Was anything communicated by the smell?  

no

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?       

no

How long did the experience last?       

approx 1-2 minutes or possibly less

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

beginning and end were sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes

smiling and comforting and loving

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

hugging her with both arms and feeling her was as if she was very real sitting there on my bed

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

felt a loving that made things fell really well

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

no longer feel as though I miss her so much

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

worst-cannot feel comfortable to tell my mother and other family members 

best-feeling she was so real and loves me and knows I love her.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

Uncertain

            Describe:     

I feel extremely relaxed about some things that before I didn't feel I could, including that it ok with me to accept the difficulties of my serious disability

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

believe more in people's survival and the impermanence of life

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?           

Yes, less concern about afterlife

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

love for her and a feeling of being grateful for seeing her after several years

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  

Yes

actually, I felt that a lot of time had expired when only a minute or two had expired

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   

No

Did you become aware of future events?      

No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

I have also had 3 other experiences, but only one with a person or entity involved

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes

wife interested and friends interested--one friend felt it similar to her own experiences

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      

no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          

Uncertain 

I was in a coma for 13 days and my life has changed significantly since that including a craving to read books about near-death experiences and the afterlife--a friend wonders if I could have experienced an NDE without remembering it.  I have had 3 mediums tell me about contact with my grandfather about specific details that others could never have known including my father's occupation, my grandfather's model and color of car and that there are family coming from the US to visit.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Yes, as honestly as I could