Tony G's ADC
girl Angel was put down after a horribly battle with cancer on January 23 2006
at around 6:00 am. She had been suffering for about three months. In the end my
baby couldn't even take two steps without passing out and collapsing onto the
floor. she was bleeding internally and for two days every breath she drew was
very labored. I prayed on the night of the 22 that she would pass painlessly in
the night. but when I awoke She was not on the side of the bed where she was
every night for 10 and a half years, she was in the living room totally
disoriented and suffering like you can't imagine. I never understood how some
people could put their pets to sleep when they were sick until that morning. I
made the most painful decision I have ever made in my life that morning. I
realized that my sweet Angel was afraid of leaving us behind and this made her
hang on for too long. My Angel and me, my girlfriend Pam, Brutis and Peanut (her
brothers by adoption all her life) Made the difficult drive to the vet where she
was being treated with chemo for her illness. When we got there they talked to
us and told us what was going to happen. When they took my Angie down the hall
to insert an IV for the procedure I remember her looking franticly at me when
they took her down the hall away from me. She knew she didn't have long and she
wanted me to be there for her when she passed. I told her I would be right here
and I would see her in just a minute. When she came back the vet left us alone
for as long as we needed to say our good-byes. We told Angel her suffering was
almost over forever. When I couldn't stand to see the light of my life suffer
for a second longer we called in the vet and he gave her the shot. We talked to
her and told her to go to the light and to go see Taz (her other brother that
Died 5 years earlier). I remember when she passed her little head hit the ground
and I thought I wish I would have been holding it in my arms so I could have
laid it down softly. But I was rubbing her belly telling her it was alright and
I would be there shortly. After she was gone I got a pair of scissors and cut
off the ponytail I wore for 20 years and told the vet to cremate it with her
because it represented the 10 best years of my life. The 10 years I had with my
babies. I didn't cry when all of this went on but when we left the vet without
Angel and I knew I would never see her again on this plain I lost it, I was
completely gone I had nothing to offer anyone, just pain in my heart. Three days
later about 7:00 pm, My buddy Steve and I were sitting out front with the dogs
feeling very depressed, even the dogs were not themselves. Suddenly, Brutis my
biggest male who was chewing a raw hide at the moment jumped up and started
rearing his head back and forth and whining like something was tiring to take
his treat. When he and Angel were together she would always pick on him just
exactly like that, and in all of Brutis's life nothing or no one ever evoked
that kind of response out of him except his Angel. He could have easily really
hurt her at any time in her life but he never went too far he always loved her
too much to hurt her. Brutis is 106 pound cur that could be a real grouch most
of the time. He was a real brute but he loved his Angie. He never ever
mounted another dog all his life other than Angel. He really Loved her. When was
whining about something trying to take away his raw hide Steve and I just sat
there in total amazement. when Brutis would whine and shake his head to one side
or another he was looking directly at me as if he were saying "Do you see her!"
Then he started running back and forth in the yard going nuts! Then all the dogs
(we had 5 including Angel) started to go crazy running back and forth in the
yard looking up into the sky barking and running mad! Bandit her little brother
just sat in the yard looking up at the sky howling. Then Brutis grabbed a toy
from the yard and ran back and forth in the yard like a maniac. The whole time
my buddy Steve was telling me that Brutis was trying to tell me something. The
whole thing lasted 30 to 40 seconds but I can't express enough how much these
dogs were going nuts! Especially Brutis. At the very end all the dogs stopped
barking and Brutis dropped his toy and just looked up into the sky and wagged
his tail. When it was all over my buddy and I were truly speechless, for we knew
we had just witnessed something from beyond this world, proof to both of us and
4 dogs that there is no doubt there is a life after death. I said to Steve "do
you know what just happened?" He said it was Angel...... It was Angel.
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Dogs can't lie. They are much more in touch with the spirit world than we are. I know my dogs better than I know myself. Brutis and Peanut are 12 now and they both changed that night. We were given a gift from God that night and nothing can ever take that away from us.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I felt only positive feelings during the whole experience, as did Steve and of course the Dogs. It was like Angel was on her way to heaven and she asked God if she could tell us she was ok. Kind of like Angel telling Brutis "rest now because I will tease you again someday!
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I just knew that she was ok, I just knew!
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Knowing she was ok was the best , and knowing I would have to spend the rest of my life here without her was worst.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Describe: So many religions say animals don't have a soul, but I saw what I saw so I guess I turned away from traditional religion and inwardly more spiritual.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I knew Angel was Ok.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes I always wanted God to show me a sign because I have always been very depressed all my life. I knew that there was more to life than just what I was seeing. He showed me that I should keep going and in the end I will have everyone back again forever.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain Just that my friend Steve was there and he saw the same thing I did.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? relief, closure, hope, Love
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes My best friend Steve
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I saw a miracle.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Uncertain
When little Bandit started howling at the sky we wondered if ( his real brother Taz) was there too. He was very very close to him. Bandit and Taz spent every moment together for 3 years. Taz was killed by a car. My three big dogs (Brutis Angel and Peanut) played together, and (Taz and Bandit) at 12 pounds played with each other. they were always all together but separated somewhat by size. They all loved each other
Did you see a light? No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes many people including my pastor at the time and they all believed it.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? Animals are here to teach us very important lessons in life and we need to take good care of them because all they want to do is Love and help us.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Uncertain
possibly twice when I was in my teens.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes