Tracy S's ADC
I traveled from eastern New Mexico to my home in southwest Arizona and at a location on Interstate 10 I stopped at a truck stop that belonged to my friend Bill. I ate breakfast in the truck stop restaurant and asked the lady at the cash register about Bill. She suddenly looked sad and told me that Bill had died recently after a short bout with cancer. I was shocked and saddened, because Bill had always been a dynamic, vibrant man with an excess of energy and a love of life that I had admired. The lady told me that Bill's widow was living on the property and showed me where she lived which was a double wide trailer located on the south edge of the truck stop property.
I decided to contact her and offer my condolences, as well find out what had happened to my friend. I went to the front door of the house and knocked on the door. It was answered by a stunning woman with long blond hair and who was wearing nothing except a long t-shirt that revealed to me that she had nothing on underneath. I was quite shocked by the sight and it took me a moment to gain my composure, and then I introduced myself to the woman. She seemed not the least bit concerned about her manner of dress, and in fact she seemed quite amused at my reaction to her dress, or lack of as it were. She stated that she was Bill's widow, and when she realized who I was she suddenly gained a sense of modesty and pulled a sheet draped across the arm of a chair near the door and wrapped it around her.
I had spoken to her on numerous occasions on the phone, but this was the first time I had spoken to her in person. She invited me in and over the next half hour she told me how Bill had died, and I offered my condolences and wished her well. In truth I could not wait to leave her presence, she not only made me feel very uncomfortable because of her lack of clothing when we first met, but because of something beyond my understanding at that time that was making me uneasy.
I left and began my ninety mile trip south towards my home, and during the entire trip I could not get my mind off of the encounter with Bill's widow and my shock at his death.
I went to bed quite late that night and sometime after midnight I was awakened by a spirit that entered my room. Let me explain that I have always possessed the ability to sense the presence of spirits, good or bad as the case may be and so I was not surprised by this occurrence. I could not see the spirit, but could sense it's presence and then I realized that the spirit was my friend Bill. Bill spoke to me mind to mind as is normal communication between mortal and spirit.
Bill was simply frantic and confused by his death because it had happened so fast. He pled with me that I go back to the location of his truck stop and resolve a conflict between his ex-wife and his daughters Chris, Toni and Samantha. He was simply filling my head full of information, because he was grateful that I could hear him and now he felt he had a way to resolve the problems between them through me. He explained the problem to me and that it was that the girls and his widow were fighting over his sizeable wealth and he asked me to tell his daughters to stop fighting over his earthly estate with their step mother and settle their differences quickly. He told me many things and I will not relate them in the interest of brevity here, but he kept me awake for about four hours talking to me. I finally had to ask him to leave me alone to get some sleep, or I would not be able to do as he requested the next day. He left reluctantly, but woke me up at five o'clock a.m. urging me to leave to the truck stop, or that I would miss something that needed to happen.
When I arrived at the truck stop I ate in the restaurant hoping to find one of his daughter's who managed it there. I finished my meal and re-entered my car with the intent of going to Bill's widow again, but as I crossed the parking lot and then knocked at the door of his widow I found that no one was home. I then noticed two women that seemed familiar to me walking across the parking lot and talking very intently to one another. I decided to approach them and so I drove up behind them and stopping my car, stepped out and said, "Are either of you Bill's daughters? It turned out that it was Toni and Cris, Bill's two youngest daughters, and then I very awkwardly told them that I was there because I had been asked to come by their father. I thought that they would laugh and dismiss me, but on the contrary they seemed to be desperate to hear of anything about their father, and anxious to hear what I had to say.
We spent the afternoon together in their father's office located on a second level over the truck stop in which I recounted to them the things their father had told me about resolving the discord between their step mother and themselves. I also revealed to Toni that she was pregnant and that her father knew about it. No one knew about her pregnancy except her sisters. I told them things about themselves that I would have no way of knowing. We were all in tears almost throughout the conversation because we could feel Bill' presence with us very strongly while our conversation went on.
I learned from the girls that the step mother had totally excluded Bill's daughters from his funeral. Bill had stated in his will that he wanted to be buried in a rough board coffin lined with horse blankets, and then buried in a cemetery located at his childhood home in Texas. After his death he was embalmed and then she and two of her boyfriends had hauled his remains to the designated spot in Texas in the back of a pickup truck and buried him there without ceremony of any kind. The girls, nor Bill's mother were not invited
to the funeral and of course they had experienced no closure and were very upset about the way they were treated. They do not even know where he is buried and the widow will not tell.
Our conversation lasted into the sunset of the Arizona desert and I came away from the meeting feeling that at least two of Bill's daughters had experienced closure because of the desires of their father for me to contact them. I also learned that Bill's widow was not what she appeared to be, and that in fact she may be a black widow and I am suspicious that perhaps his death may not have been related to his cancer.
visited me one more time a short time after this event took place, and this time
he seemed relieved and happy and grateful to me for doing for him what he could
not do for himself.
Date of experience: October 2001.
Length of time between death of deceased and your experience: five months
Was the date of the experience significant in any way? no
General geographic location of experience: Western, Arizona.
Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience: Began at the home of my friends widow, continued in my bedroom at my wife's parents, and then in the presence of two of my friend's daughters.
Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience: Moderate sadness and/or grief feelings
Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience: Fully alert
After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience: Wonderful
Have you had multiple experiences? Yes 3
Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes
The lack of ability to describe things of the spirit in any language is almost impossible.
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I very clearly heard him in my mind, but not vocally. He spoke to me in this manner throughout our entire conversation.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? We communicated on a mental level that was inaudible to my human ears.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? I knew who it was the instant he began communicating to me. There was not doubt even though he did not speak in his mortal voice I knew it was him on a level I do not understand.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? Absolute no possibility that it came from any other source.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? I have extreme hearing loss in my right ear and about 40% hearing loss in my left ear due to exposure to firearms usage as a police officer for twenty five years, but the communication did not take place in a mortal hearing manner.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Yes, the deceased was very distressed at confusion about his death and the great concern he possessed over his family and the problems they were experiencing.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes, I revealed to his daughter that she was pregnant, and that the deceased was aware of it, and other things about them that I do not wish to reveal now that he told me.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: This was not the first time I had experienced this type of communication, and through whatever power this was being allowed to happen, I was given explicit, solid understanding that what was happening was true.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: My original emotion at learning of Bill's death was sadness that I did not have the opportunity to visit with him before his death. I knew I would miss him on a very deep emotional level, and it was difficult to deal with because I have lost dear friends before and I dearly miss them.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Deeply certain that my friend was now content, or perhaps happy at the outcome of my efforts.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Approaching the girls with the information their dead father asked me to reveal to them.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes Yes, it simply added to my already strong understanding of life, death and the afterlife, and God's love for His children.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes The pregnancy of Bill's daughter. It verified itself when she gave birth to a healthy child.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy that I had the opportunity to be of service to my friend, and happiness that his daughters had a form of closure. Anger at what I perceived to be the the evil actions of his widow.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes
Part of the contact was witnessed by the two daughters of my deceased friend.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
No, because I already possessed this special knowledge before this experience occured.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I am very choosy about who I reveal this and other experiences to, because by experience I know that not all will believe and accept it. My wife generally hears of my experiences first, and she believes, but only those of my acquaintances who know me hear experiences such as these.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes See Tracy S's STE's on NDERF.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Very comprehensive and complete questionaire.
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