As I lay in bed, deep in grief and crying, I suddenly felt the bed depressed next to me, as if George had laid down next to me...I blinked, reached out to touch him, and felt him! I stared in disbelief at the crater he made in the mattress, as if he were really there.  

I felt him reach for my hand, and I saw his eyes as he looked into my eyes. He proceeded to tell me how much he loved me, and how grateful he was for the time we had together. He held me in his arms and we talked for hours, and then I fell asleep. 

When I awoke, he was gone, but I had the most wonderful feeling, even though the intense grief was still there. All I remember is him saying: I had no idea how many people loved me...and how much they loved me. If I had known, my life would have been different. 

A few months later, I was crying hysterically while in the bathroom after midnight, and there were suddenly 3 booming crashes on the bathroom door (the door actually flexed inward each time)...I didn't hear his voice, but the intent was clear: KNOCK IT OFF!

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes  partly because I only remember part of it

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?           

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    see #3 above

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  I heard his voice, and responded verbally, as well as felt it within me.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           similar

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

see #3 above

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   very familiar...very loving, and comforting

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  great Love and compassion

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no way

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

he was transparent, his eyes were the most vivid, but I could feel him as almost as solid as if alive.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            mostly transparent

            How much of the deceased did you see?       his entire body

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       same age

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            extremely healthy

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        hours...at least 3-4

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the beginning was sudden, and then I fell asleep before it ended.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

He was happy, but very aware of how upset I was. He definitely was loving and compassionate with me, and tried to comfort me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  see #3 above. I don't remember anything else, other than that he did explain many things to me about why he had to go when he did...and also that I wouldn't remember it later.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Both the physical presence and the emotions I had

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No           

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Abandoned

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I probably would have been a lot worse if I hadn't had that experience.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      seeing and touching him again was wonderful...the worst part was when it was over.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No                 

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     well, I wasn't as angry

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            No      

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain I didn't remember all that he said.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Love, compassion, peace

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

see #3 above

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     they are always amazed

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes  lots!

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes