Experience description:
I have had many
experiences dating back to early childhood. It's the sensation that overcomes my
body that is most familiar. As a healthy child I could not relate this
sensation to anything I had experienced but as an adult I found that recognized
the sensation when I went under general anesthetic for the first time. As soon
as I felt the anesthetic taking over my body I thought "this is it, this is what
happens to me". I do not remember what I did or what happened to me during the
childhood experiences and the ones in early adulthood and I have a strong
feeling that most of the memories were taken from me by the beings I met on
these experiences. At a point in time - about 15 years ago I demanded that they
not take my memories of the experiences. They still did but I put an effort into
remembering the experiences and many of them would come back in part, if not
fully.
The most vivid memory
of an experience I have is of floating gently out of my bed, through the ceiling
and roof, and then at breakneck speed higher and higher. I met a young woman who
appeared to be in her teens who spent time with me, she didn't say it but I knew
she was my daughter. I had not given birth to her but I had a miscarriage when
my oldest son was about 18-20 months old. I am sure this "being" was her or her
spirit. She told me that she had wanted to meet me and that she was breaking the
rules by doing so and that if caught she would be punished. I have never seen
her again.
Another vivid experience started out the same way and I ended up on what I can
only describe as a train. It was very different to the trains I am used to and
was more like a flexible, sealed tube hurtling across a vast plain. The plain
was a deep red color and the part of the train I was in was filled with other
beings like me - we were sharing an experience. I was being asked to calm them
as they were not as experienced as I was. They asked me to assure the newcomers
and tell them they were in no danger and would all go back to where they had
come from. I seem to be used as a teacher during these experiences and I have
now just completed my teaching degree and work as a Primary School Teacher.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain I can explain them but don't want to as I don't want others to
think I am crazy.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I
was alert and conscious during the experiences.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
They
always happen at night when I am alone so when they first happened I thought
they were dreams but I had my doubts.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
At
first they scared me as I could remember very little of this "lost" time but I
now feel almost relieved when they happen. I enjoy the experience.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
Not
that I can recall although during some experiences I felt as though I were in a
void or vacuum as there was no sound at all not even my own voice or heartbeat.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes The experience in the "train" made me feel as though I were on another
planet. it was unearthly and like nothing I had ever seen before even in
pictures.
Did
you see a light?
No - I didn't travel into a light if that is what you mean by this question.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes. I met a girl who i am sure was my daughter (from a miscarriage) and I have
met other beings that I have spoken with but cannot really describe and i am not
sure if that is because they did not reveal themselves or because they did not
have a body as we know it.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes My senses were heightened and I seemed to be able to communicate without
physically speaking.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I always look at the time on the clock before I "leave" and although in
most experiences I seem to be gone for a short time - an hour at the most is
what it feels like, when I return the clock has advanced 2-4 hours.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes I feel a lot more relaxed about my life now - whatever will be, will be,
I feel that the death of the physical body is just the beginning of a new life
and that i have been through the cycle many times and am now moving into the
"teaching phase" of my journey - like an elder.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I felt I was "returned" on many occasions as I was asking or demanding
information they did not want to reveal. I was crossing an invisible line that
was not allowed at that stage of my experiences.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Uncertain I now know that this time we are living in will come to an end
and we (physical beings) will have to start again just as we have in the past -
many times before.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
Yes I could tell that they were unhappy or uncomfortable with my actions and
would return me even though I protested.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain There are things that I "know" that surprise me - such as how to
do things that I have never done before.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I was not a religious person before the experiences that I can remember
but afterwards I am a believer in something more than a physical existence.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
I
take each day as it comes rather than trying to plan out my future. I do not
practice religion but do that the universe for my blessings. I decide to become
a teacher as I have a deep understanding that I am now that at my stage.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
No
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Initially anger that some other being could control me in such a way and could
decide what I can have knowledge of. Now i enjoy the experiences and feel they
are normal.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The
best part is feeling that i have a use in the universe besides my physical
existence and the worst part is that it is not time for me to stay with them.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Uncertain To a point. I feel the experiences are a lot more complex that
even I can understand. Although they happen to me as my personal experience I
feel that their purpose has not been fully revealed to me.