My father had a massive heart attack the night if his birthday. (21dec) he spent the 22nd in the ICU and passed on the 23rd of December. it was very traumatic experience since he was ok and had been under care if doctors and they had said he was healthy.  I felt life wasn't worth living for anymore.. I had feelings of doubt and confusion, hate and sadness. I couldn't go to work because the hospital environment would make my panic attacks more frequent. I had many experiences as soon as my father passed. I credit that to my father must have known how I was feeling and tried to put my mind at ease. I would communicate with him in dreams as well as songs playing on the radio that was no way related to the radio station and all of a sudden the song that we played during his funeral would come on (what are the odds that a Mormon hymn would play on a soft hits radio station)??

Any ways one night I had a dream that my father was sitting in a purple flowered love sofa in a white room no one around just me and him. I was standing next to the right armrest having such a nice conversation.. He looked younger he had his favorite cowboy red stripe shirt and ray bans on. I remember him smiling and nodding his head but for some reason when I woke up I couldn't remember the conversation I had with him. That morning I got up got ready for work confused and mad that I couldn't remember our conversation why would he be nodding his head? My husband usually goes to bed way after I do and wakes up later. I was at work trying to remember everything about that conversation but I couldn't. Then my husband calls to see if everything was ok and I said yes he then said you were acting strange last night. He then continue to say that I kept on saying " please take me with you" take me to that place " then my husband said he was trying to ask me where do you want me to take you? I kept on saying " ok I'll do my work here and then when I'm done with it, will you come for me? And he said I had a huge smile that just scared him.

I then understood the dream I couldn't remember because he probably told me what I had to do here on earth and the nodding of the head must have been him saying he couldn't take me now. It's been 2 yrs since he is not here and I miss him dearly.. I am comforted by his visitations and signs. Can't wait to see him again.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes          

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?   Outside 

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     Yes     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No  

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   Yes  

Describe where and how you were touched:     Hand

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Familiar  

Was anything communicated by the touch?   That everything was going to be ok  

Did you see the deceased?   Uncertain           

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   Younger

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    Healthy   

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    Yes

What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?    Roses

Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?    Fragrant        

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    You can tell it was not an ordinary dream

Was the experience dream like in any way?    Uncertain   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Yes    Comfort that I saw him   

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Yes        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    Yes    Knew that I still had work to do here

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    Afterlife is real

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   Yes

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    Yes    My husband

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       Uncertain   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        Yes   

Did you become aware of future events?           Yes   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    Uncertain   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes   

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No        

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes