Amelia R's ADC
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Experience description:

I was tossing and turning in bed for hours that night, I couldn't sleep. As soon as I would start to doze off I would wake up wide awake. I moved from the bed to my couch in an effort to try and help myself fall asleep. As I started to doze off on the couch, I felt a feeling I have not felt in so long - Anthony's stubble across my face. I knew it was him immediately, I felt a warmth across my whole body and I could literally feel his presence on top of me. In our physical life together Anthony and I were always close to one another, cuddling or snuggling. I felt the weight on him holding me like I had so many times before. I started crying and asked him to please not leave me. I could not see him but he grabbed my hand and used it to wipe my tears. I did ask him to please show himself to me, I believe that he tried but maybe he does not have that ability yet or I am not able to see him yet. All I saw was what appeared to be a white aura where I have a picture of him on my wall. I continued to beg him not to leave me and I felt a calm come over me, a calm that I only ever felt with him. A feeling that I was sure I would never feel again and asked him to please stay with me at least until I fell asleep. He did, I remember drifting off, and at that point I felt I had no control.

As much as I wanted to stay awake I couldn't. When I woke up I remembered every detail of the experience and it only made me more sure that our love was so great it can transcend time, space, and even worlds.

 Background Information:

 Date of experience:           01/25/2016

 Length of time between death of deceased and your experience:          9 months

 Was the date of the experience significant in any way?     No

 General geographic location of experience:  Washingtonville, NY

 Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience:  Trying to sleep on couch

 Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience:     Severe sadness and/or grief feelings

 Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience:         Slightly drowsy

 After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience:       Wonderful

 Have you had multiple experiences?   Yes     Was this experience difficult to express in words?          No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes

 Everywhere

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Yes. He rubbed his stubble from his beard across my cheek, which made me aware he was there and I could feel him holding my whole body.

             Was anything communicated by the touch?  Yes, our love. It is still very much alive even though his physical form is no longer present on earth

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

 Did you see the deceased?         Uncertain

 I was not able to see him but based on the way he felt to me I can assume he looks pretty much the same - he appeared to me as a white aura

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            white aura - did not see his face

            How much of the deceased did you see?       white aura - did not see any of him

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       white aura - did not see any of him

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            N/A

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           Heck No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

 How long did the experience last?        An hour

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the end was gradual he helped me to fall asleep

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No. He gave me some much needed love and attention that I have been missing desperately

 Did you believe in ADCs prior to your experience? Believed it not likely to happen
            Do you believe in ADCs now?    Absolutely

            Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience?     absolutely not
            Do you now believe in an afterlife? Absolutely

            Did you believe in God or a Supreme Being prior to your experience?  absolutely not
            Do you now believe in God or a Supreme Being?    No response

            Were you afraid of death before your experience?  Not fearful
            Are you afraid of death now?     Not fearful

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

             Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           He woke me up touching my face. I know when I am dreaming and when I am not, I keep a dream journal and am pretty aware of my dreams. This was not a dream of that I am sure. I know how my body felt and how my soul felt. Anthony was with me that is the only explanation.

             Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

 What did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?                         
             
Sad      
             
             
             
             
             

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Euphoric, relaxed, calm, at peace

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

 From my experience I now know that the love that Anthony and I shared in our time together on earth exists in the next life. For me that is the greatest thing that I could ask for. To know that after this life we get to love each again. For now we love each other from different worlds.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Everything was great. The worst part was when it ended.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?

Sacred            
             
             
             
Fantasy          
             
             
             
Joy      
             
             

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Uncertain      Makes me believe more and more that there is something after this life. It isn't just when you are dead you are dead as I used to always believe.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Sad because I miss him terribly

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

 Did you become aware of future events?       No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

 Did you see a light?           Yes

 I asked Anthony to show himself to me and he appeared as a light

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

 Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     My cousin was in the room with me - she was sleeping while all this happened and she was jealous. Anthony was he best friend and he hasn't contacted her yet. But I told her to just be patient that he will. I told my friend Jen she believes in life after death and that this physical world is our hell once we die we are at peace and can be with those who we love. She tells me all the time that Anthony and I are soul mates and have loved each other in lifetimes before and we will love each other again. Now I know that she is right and even more so is that our love is so strong it can span across the spirit world to the physical world.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I hope that everyone who loses someone they love can have an experience as great as mine. It doesn't change how miserable I am everyday of my life without my other half but it does give me hope that we will be together again in the next life.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes